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I saw some old friends in metro today,but i was too lazy to go and talk to them or ring them or wave my hand and say " hello".Mondays are always too tiring..Aren't they ?

One hotttiee is on my mind,don't take me wrong but we gals do stare other gals .She was in red ,skinny top and black jeans.Mind lowing figure,I so..wana have perfect 36 24 36 like hers.Everyone was staring at her.Some praised her,Aunties were making faces and  men were finding her hard to resist.Its strange,i was not jealous of her.I loved her.

I am loving my new job.Writing blogs and articles and being paid..what else could i ask for ! I hope to stay here long.I get bored of things and people and jobs quite soon.I want new things to explore every now and then.

Nah..no ordinary lyf !

Somewhere,I know i am not meant for living an ordinary life.There is something magical and mystical in all our lives but very few can accept it.I did.

Its like a long ,lonely walk on a road covered by tall , shady trees.I see no creature.I hear no voices.When i want something,I just ask for it and the road gets me all i want.

I am really really happiee about my result,I got first division in my PG.

My angel was the one who constantly told me i could do this.I love the way how it tells me " mera bahadur bacha".mY strenghth,my happiness,my love , my life !!

I had a really bad day too.I fought with dad alot.I cried ,I weeped,I felt all alone.But I knew,i won't stoop down.what i want,i want at any cost.I am the only one responsible for my life.If i 'll choose not happiness for me,i can't blame someone else for that.

But what i realised is - Home is  a perfect place and family is the group of people , no matter how much you fight,how much you crib,how much u curse,u 'll come back.Its where you don't need to say you are sorry always,its most of the times unsaid.Its a place where you would be forgiven for worst of your mistakes.
I love my home.

Someone once told me , " My blogs are happy blogs,they secretly bring a smile on face ".Its all i want.My blog is peeping inside my soul .I feel " A Simple Soul " was the best suitable name for my blog.What do you say ?

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The feeling of being complete,
You helped me explore.
To feel twin soul with someone,
Is what you make me feel.
My life was a rocking chair,
You helped me stabilise
It created incomplete arcs
You made it a complete whole.
I was a lost reveller,
Until you became my destination.
Into the dark,dense forest,
You paved my way like sunlight.
My home was a foreign land,
Till your heart gave me shelter.
I had lived among strangers,
Then , I was claimed to b yours.
I was leading a lost way,
When i saw your footprints.
Your heart speaked to mine,
Blindly I followed those marks.

Falling leaves from the trees,
Hardly pine its heart.

When roots start drifting away,
It surely ends it life.
When words cant express,
U r words to wat i think,
When a single touch can speak million words,
Let me b the nly thng dat covers you.

Worst kind of Loneliness

I had never been so uncomfortable with myself ever before.

              " The worst kind of Loneliness is not to be comfortable with yourself".

One moment i cry badly,
The next i giggle..
One moment,i feel like dyin,
the next i feel blissed..
One moment i want to be alone,
Next moment,It kills me.

One moment,i have good memories in my mind,
Next,I block my mind from thinking anything about it.
One moment,I want to let go everything and be back,
Next,I feel i can't forget..I can never forget.
One moment , I am enjoying every bit of my life.
Next one,makes me feel i should end it.


P.S - I really do not want i want in my life.I am hurt and I am hurting everyone around me.Please forgive me all.Its just one of those wierd mood swings.I don't mean to hurt anyone of you.

Valentine's Day- Huh..

I hate V day concept .
It makes us expect so many good things to happen and when we realise not even half of it happens in real,we get disappointed.

What difference does it makes,love is not for a single day.It should be forever.
Just cause all the newspapers tell you what you should do,where you should shop and how you should celebrate.

Just cause  everyone is talking about love ,love n love.

Just cause when i switch on my tv , i see love birds.

Why wait for one special person to celebrate the day.There are so many people who love you,make them feel loved and cared for.

I am getting mom dad a gift on this day.I will try not fighting with my sister.I would remind all my friends how much they mean to me and how special am I to have them in my Life.

Expecting one person to come in your life and brighten it up is not a bad idea but make sure other relationships do not suffer a setback.

let everyone you love have a part of you this day.

Love u guys.
Blogging is a crucial part of my life.Cant imagine life without my blog.
Here,I have the opportunity to thanks all my blogging friends who help me bring out the best in me.
I love you all alotttttt.....

Hugs..
Kissess..

Food to my Soul !!

Whenever I am torn inside , I am really really sad ,I keep distance from those who love me too .I avoid passing on my negativity to them.

The only thing that helps me come out of it - Good Quotes.

It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting."
 

"Everything tells me that I am about to make a wrong decision, but making mistakes is just part of life. What does the world want of me? Does it want me to take no risks, to go back to where I came from because I didn't have the courage to say "yes" to life?"

Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity

"A child can teach an adult three things: to be happy for no reason, to always be busy with something, and to know how to demand with all his might that which he desires."

What's the world's greatest lie?... It's this: that at a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate."

Do not !!!

1) just read Miss R's post " my fears".It speaks my heart.Do not wana loose my friends,take the responsibilities,make myself a second priority,Be one of those " Aunties" who talk about inlaws,children and serials.yeeeeaaaak.....just not what i can ever cope up with .Wish i cud always stay unmarried not being nun either.ARGH..it brings the hell outta me.

2) when am i growing up..when.I am fed up of being told " childish"," kiddish","sweet" n " bubbly".Come on , i need a break.Enough,i had..I do not want to be sweet or a good girl.i want to be BAD.

3) i dont know what i want from my life.when would the day come when i would be saying " yes" " yes" this is all i want nad not a inch here or there.

4) i want peace....please let me be myself.let me be alone.I have a life of my own.Do you understand ? and you too have a life.yeah,really,just start talking about yourself and not me.

5) Want something to happen..something that sets me free..Being free is the thing i desire the most in my life..let me be..

Niki ka Satsang

Negativity = Lack of Love.


Unnecessary Fights = Lask of Conversation.

M happieeeee......

I am  a li'l stupid..I do over react most of the times.I keep brooding over one thing time and again until it becomes " Oh , my god.I can't take anymore".

One negative thought brings another and it keeps coming together making a whole.

I was being over protective .My angel is all mine and nobody can take away him.Even if one does,I am so sure he will come back running to be in my arms.

I am blessed to have him in my life.


♫ just realized perfection is not sumthing that one finds........... it's wot one creates ....... and sumtymes leaving d lil imperfections as dey are ..... is how it all becums so damn perfect ♥ ♥
 
 

 
It hardly matters to us what opinion others hold about our relationship.Sometimes, it does hurt me,Agreed.
 
But Angels are above all humanly trivialities.So,is he.
 
M so............ happpieeeeeee.........
 
Dhinchak..dhinchak...feel like dancing on Punjabi songs.
 
kaDi SaaDi Gali BhuL K bI aYA kRO...
 

Its Hurts

I can't stay with the words I was preaching you all.I can't make myself happy when i really want to come out of the dark shell.
I am once again being lost in my lonely island.Facing the wierdest of all mood swings.

I am fed up of staying home and facebooking whole day.Its like nothing else being left to do.This is not the Life I want.

I just can't tolerate that girl in my life.I can't be the Goody Goody girl anymore.Its hurting me too much.Why is he not understanding either.

Hell do I care !!
Just find your own ways and never you dare restrict my path.I am feeling very lonely. I feel nobody is giving a damn to see the tears behind my fake smile.
just nobody to understand me.

My favourite collection of songs just sounds like bullshit words.
My teddy whom i used to hug for long hours,I feel like tearing the lifeless object.

I do not wana talk and do not wana listen.Going through a rough phase of my life.

I really wonder how just one person is enough to screw up all things in your life and Why does it always happens to be a girl with me.

Who the hell was she to tell my Angel to stay away from me..Someone who wanted to take away the most beautiful part of my life .How can I be good to her.I am sorry.I just can't wear faces like her.I can't pretend like her.I can't knowingly hurt others like she does.

I am sorry...

Feeling butterflies

I just read one of my favourite bloggers,Riya is getting married..I could feel butterflies in my stomach too.How does it feels to realise you would be someone 's forever in a few days.To experience the joy of new life.

Omg..its like heavens !! is it.

Speaking my mind,I used to hold on to super negative thoughts about " Marriage" but it feels good now.Love is on my mind !!! Only love and love and love !!

And trust me ,I feel top on this universe just thinking about it.

It would be such a great feeling to have your love with you each day.Each morning waking up together and cuddling in each others arms each night.

It would be such special feeling to be part of his/her family.For all the new relationships that add more and more love in your life.

It gives you the worth of being a woman.To feel the bliss of "Motherhood".How wonderful it would feel to have your own creation.You and your love.