why are you so far away.....

Why are you so far away from me…That I can’t hug you when I want to be wrapped….That I can’t look in to your 

eyes when I don’t know where I belong to….

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I feel nobody cares…Its living in the wrong world if I believe everyone around is happy to see me happy….some just 

pretend they are...some are just walking away …

It hurts when I can’t see you…when I can’t hold your hands ...when I can’t  reach you….I spread my arms wide…hoping you would come and hold me in your arms…but why does my arms come back all alone…

why can’t I feel things around me beautiful just because you are not anywhere around….How can I miss you while talking to you on phone?

How can I hear you and be lost in your thoughts….What’s happening with me!! Why do I fall and gather up the courage to walk again…Why do I cry and smile again because something you did some time back makes me smile till date…

Why…only thing I got to say is hmmmm…..why do I still believe you understand the long story behind the tiny hmmmm…..

why can’t I stop my tears when you ask me what’s wrong? Why can’t I hide from you that my heart aches….How can I feel lonely when I am surrounded by folks all around me…

Why do I swallow my words when someone asks me “Are things fine..?”

Why all I can do is pass a fake smile when they say everything would be alright…just a few more days…

All dreams can't come true..

Dreams make us come closer to our inner desires....But not all of them do come true.....

Somewhere , they make us happy even in dreams,The wedding of my dreams is one such illusion...one such beautiful imagination which makes me more happier than reality could ever do....

I wana feel like a  Princess....

I wana steal away a few romantic moments at the wedding day...Let him whisper in my ears those sacred words and hold me softly through his arms...

let me be a Duchess for one day.....

I love candles and roses in my room...They are the most romantic things that could be done to steal my heart away...

Marry me in those distant lands..where its you and me....

The Room of my Dreams is somewhat like this....

Romance without waters....no way...

A few Surprises would always be welcomed....

Me and my dreams....My soul speaks through my pen.....

P.S - Rains make me love sick..just can't help.....Missing Angel...

Ain't being alone a bliss !

Isn’t being alone so much fun with myself...

Moments when I feel I am all alone with the one who never fails to understand me...who loves me unconditionally....

Are we not the best person to judge ourselves...Isn't being alone equivalent to being happy…Being content and satisfied...

Times when I am with myself, I get to look inside me and understand myself better….Moments when I can be completely at ease with myself…when I feel immense love for myself…

Isn’t loving oneself more essential than loving others….Isn’t being a silent girl sitting in the corner much better than the one cribbing amongst the crowd…

Simplicity is the nature of great souls…I feel proud to be gifted with plainness and simplicity…

Did you met a girl before  who was in love with herself..I truly am…

Isn’t it peaceful to close your eyes and hear the music inside you…Isn’t it a bliss to look inside your own heart and talk to oneself…who could understand you better than your own soul….

Others just know you the way you want them to know..they judge you by the words you speak….

Aren’t you the best person to be alone with me…be 

with yourself…discover moments of eternal bliss…

A thought to share …Love yourself...Cause you are special....You are a human creation who can make  miracles happen ....All you need is Love...love for yourself...

you know what !!

My wildest dreams are about to come true...I am gonna sleep each night in your arms and wake up each day with your arms folded around me...

We are going to visit  places together holding hands...we 'll get all our days and nights to be spent with each other....

We won't need emails , texts , phone or internet to stay in touch...We would be together always.....till forever....

Just the thought of it makes my life worthwhile.....Imagine , how I am going to be taken to my Angel's land....All my dreams would be just a few steps away.......

My mom knows about us now....She seems to be happy !! I can't pen down what it actually means to me...This is the first time I could gather up the courage to tell my parents about a guy....Such is the Faith I bestow on him....

I never let thoughts of our separation to waver in my mind ever...I know we are meant to be together...and when It could be with our Parent's blessings...what else could I ever ask for.....

I need blessings...Its just the first step I took...His family already knows about us....Crossing my fingers...Hoping for the best to happen !!

We are going to be each other's officially ....yayyeeeeee........A year or so...and we would be knotted in the world's most precious knot...

At the same time , I have fears in my mind..fear of new family , fear of not being accepted , fear of proving myself as the right one , fear of taking up the responsibilities....

I fear i won't be forgiven believing i am still a kid....I fear it won't be as easy as I think it would be...I fear how I would be balancing my personal and professional life....

Although , I still have the time....But , they say you are never mature enough to get married...You learn things after getting married....

But one thing that makes all my fears vanish is Angel by my side...I know what so ever happens , he would be there for me always...His arms would be wide open when i would need shoulders to cry on...He would be lending his ears when i need to talk endlessly...

And I even know somewhere mom dad would love him...and they would love me for choosing him....And we would be a happy family together....

I said I feel like  a Family with Angel...He's gonna be a family....I love the fact that he is mine now forever....

love and proposals

Life is such a vast term that a life time is less to unravel its mystery and beauty...penning down a girl's journey through love and proposals...A girl starts facing admirers much before she can understand what does this all mean...We live in a world where a 4 year old girl could be raped too..I remember my childhood days , I used to cry badly when i felt any guy is taking interest in me...i could not take lightly even if anyone stared at me for long...


A girl when reaches her 16 th year , she has hopes of a fairy world , every guy has one love and every girl loves a single guy , people do marry only the ones who are their first love...She trusts blindly , her cheeks go red when you call her beautiful ,  i love you only means to her  you would marry her.

who does forgets his/her first love..we do silly things ..don't we ? Its a stage where each guy and each girl gets into a relationship with no desire to cheat or be cheated..But the world they live in is a illusionary world...It slowly starts fading away , we realize we are growing up , we realize its not love....and we move on in our live...Years later , we feel such innocent love was it....such crazy things we did...But it always remains with us as sweet memory.

The first time someone breaks our heart...Doesn't life just comes to an end...Didn't we all felt like giving up life...Always being surrounded by family an friends who love us with all their heart ...And when someone you trusted with all your heart , leaves you without giving a reason ...Don't we all feel disgusted...But , things do change..we grow up....

A girl passes through this stage too....the feeling of guilt...Guilt of hiding things from our parents , guilt of telling lies at home , guilt of falling in love with the wrong guy , of the first kiss , no matter it remains forever in our hearts...I feel guilty when I know someone loves me truly but I can't love them back..

yes , we girls still believe in love...No matter , you broke our heart , you played with our feelings , we still have faith the right guy would come on a white horse and take us away to the Castle...we believe in fairy tales long after we grow up...

there comes the right guy....dreams do come true...fairy tales are not mere stories...we doubt the one who loves us truly...as we have been through wrong guys to finally have you in arms..You come in our lives to make us forget all the pain the world gave us....we feel complete with you...The search here ends....

A girl reaches this stage when the most good looking guy can't take her heart away because the one she gave her heart is the best man in this world...No proposals can ease her heart ..no words can touch her heart cause she has decided to give her life to the one she loves....

love is life...

Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, or well 
bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves.

The path to Love is so narrow that two can not walk on it , unless they become one..

Millions and millions of years would still not give me half enough time to describe that tiny instant of all eternity when you put your arms around me and I put my arms around you.

Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night.  I miss you like hell.

  

Memory is a child walking along a seashore.  You never can tell what small pebble it will pick up and store away among its treasured things.

love and marriage

Isn't Love such a beautiful emotion...and Marriage just the opposite of the shore...

I have seen many relationships in my life getting inside grave as Marriage could not be the destination....I hate lovers getting parted just because they do not belong to the same religion...just because they do not worship the same god...Who can make them understand that lovers worship each other...

I do not understand how can people let go the love of their lives , the one they had been loving since a 10 years all of a sudden.When you love someone , you should be determined to keep the commitment and get that person in your life till forever..by hook or by crook...

If you really value your family so much that sacrificing the love for family is too less , than why did the hell you loved ? If you can't make your parents understand how deeply in love you are...what's the use of thinking about the love when its long gone...why spoil someone else's life whom you can never love the way you did..why..why...why.....

I feel this Marriage  should never have been existed...why getting married when you are not in love and probably you never will....

Arrange Marriages..another things i do not appreciate...It rarely does happen that you fall in love with the one you are married too...A few early years would pass as the physical attraction is too much to resist...but at a later stage..it becomes a venom...lack of love spoils life...Its becomes an obligation and a responsibility ..in place of love and commitment..

True test of love is when your hairs grow grey, when you can't walk properly , when you are with your grand children or grown up adult kids...How much can you still adore your love ? How much can you praise him / her and neglect everything else....You realize..You married the right guy when he can still see that girl in you who made him 

say “ I love you “ and not an old , worrisome lady.

a few memories...

Its been two months today since Angel left..We have survived..We have been a support to each other...we did made each other feel all the more loved and cared about..

But..missing each other is still a part of our lives..

Recalling back , a few memories...a few secrets unrevealed...

I saw a dream ...I am at his place...I woke up early morning  like a good daughter in law...I got ready and served breakfast to mum and dad..I come back to our room and Angel is still lying asleep..like a small baby with a smile on his face.

I whisper in his ears"... Baby ,I am leaving..call me when you wake up..love ya.."

I have a very normal day at office...While coming back home ,I call mum if she is free.We both come home together...

His Mom , dad and me are having tea together..I call him like all the wives " Kaha ho tum " lolzzz " Ghar kitni der me ayoge "( Where are you and when are you reaching home )

He tells me he is on his way..We , the family goes out for a dinner..My hubby got a cake..and Guess what Its my birthday..What's special about this dream is..This gal is someone who starts planning her birthday a month before , preparing list of the invitees and Birthday dress and accessories..But her dreams had the plainest and simplest of birthdays with her new family and nobody else...

I often see myself preparing dinner for my Angel and he being there with me...admiring me , helping me out and kissing me on cheeks when ever possible...

I dream about sleeping in his arms..the safest place to be..I dream about hugging my new mom and being surrounded by his naughty cousins...I dream about having silly fights and making up the next moment..

love talks

A guy tells her Gf

He – I saw a dream yesterday which I want to share with you!

She – Yeah...tell me baby.

He – I saw that I am sitting in a multi storied building, my cabin has a lavish view and I am working simultaneously on 3 laptops.

I hear someone coming through the lobby, tick tock...Sound made by high heels.I saw you wearing a classy outfit with a pearl bracelet, high heels and seductive looks. You come near my seat and whispered in my ears, come and look at the beautiful world outside,

you held my hand and take me to the window .I can see beautiful view, mountains one side and rivers flowing the other side. I pull you towards me and hold you in my arms tightly and say, “My real world lies in your arms “

She – I love you (Tears rolling down her cheeks)

He – There was one more dream!

She – I would love to hear.

He – you and I have come to watch a movie...And we have a small boy with us. We get inside the theatre and I come out to restroom and in the meanwhile I think about getting popcorn and drinks for both of you…

What I see is you both are standing outside the theatre and you are looking at me in a worried look…My boy comes running to me shouting papa, I hold him in my arms and we come towards you..I move my fingers in your hairs, caressing, don’t worry, I was just here…

She – Speechless

As beautiful as her...

When things seem not to be in your control, Just close your eyes and think about all the wonderful people in your life, think about all the days when you smiled and laughed whole heartedly, when you were walking down the streets and all of a sudden you met an old friend who hugs you Think about the love 

being showered on you…always…

I am going to share about a girl who came to my life last year. I met her and she was introduced to me as Angel’s sister. My first thought about her was as an Attention Seeker. Slowly, circumstances rolled in a manner, I started believing she doesn’t likes me...She doesn’t like me to be with him.

 We girls are very particular about our Man anyone we spy to be a hindrance, we start hating for no reason.

Time passed.we met just for name sake. We never really had a conversation .Both of us had created a distance not to be crossed what so ever. We did hurt each other unintentionally. I was never myself with her; I was always someone else…

Angel was about to leave and this girl told me, we are going to meet and have fun…I would not let you miss him. 

One word and it shackles the image I created of her. I wanted to re discover this lady. We started being a support to each other in Angel’s absence. I slowly felt genuine love for her. The heart she possesses is far more beautiful than I could ever imagine. Life has been pretty unfair with her. 

She is one of the most beautiful girls I had ever known.I am hoping she meets her Soul mate soon and has a Happily Married Life!!

I love her a lot…Each day passes just talking to her…still I wana know her more and more…A day without her seems Lifeless..When she tells me I am someone whom she trusts the most, someone she can share everything about her Life with…It makes me feel proud...

And  the fact that she is my love’s childhood friend makes the relationship all the more precious…I value you..I love you…Please stay forever….You are my li’l Fairy who brightens up each day with her magic spark..Love ya loads..

:)

I am happy....
                           yayeeeeee..................
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On this happy happy occasion , I 'll talk only about Happy Happy things...My Angel , Most of you have agreed upon the fact that I am obsessed and addicted of him , Someone suggested Marriage is the only cure :) 


It would be the best day of my life when we would get knotted together for lifetime..Second best day would be to hold my Li'l Princess in my arms and Angel hugging both of us !!


Isn't Love such a beautiful thing....It makes one person the whole world for us..How we reward one such special guy or gal as the best on earth..In a way , we have millions of guys and gals who are the best in someone' s eyes...Making this world a perfect place to live in...


My Angel is rare...He is one of the limited editions of God..


I have never seen him rude or loosing patience in worst of conditions...


He is one of those guys who would keep staring in your eyes , no matter a gal passes by nude.


I can doubt anything in this world, yet not his love..


Someone who cares about little things and these are the moments which make you fall in love..


He is the one who would never demand what he wants ..but surprisingly , he gets everything he desires..


A guy who would think of hugging you whole night and looking into your eyes...


Someone whom you would love to share your heart with...


A guy who stays away from other girls...as he believes he has the best with her...


One who makes you as comfortable as you feel with your family....


Someone who would know all you could never say in words just by looking inside your eyes...


One of those guys you can feel they are hurt by their voice...when they know you are ill.


Someone who would never say anything he does not means...


A guy who would keep his promises and you can trust his words even when he is drunk..


One who gets gifts for his cousins , aunts and parents and maintains healthy relationships..


One who would do anything to stop the tears of a friend...


Someone you had always doubt does not belongs to earth and could be a Angel...


Yes , He is my Angel....

Come back baby…

The best thing about me is you..And its been long since I am bereft from the best part of me…what I am left with is the lonely me…and the heart I carry close to myself…the best possession of my life…that once belonged to                     

you…

I hell lotta miss you..its been so long…I wonder I managed to survive !!Everything around seems to pinch me..just cause you are not here , the world seems to be depopulated…good ones seem to be getting lesser…I am left all alone with myself…I did cried badly yesterday night as it was only you who could understand me ..the world seems to be harsh and cruel…need your love to compensate for the 

miseries around..

The world is cold…people hug you with no warmth to share..they shake hands with desire to crush your identity…they judge you by the luxuries you can afford…It’s a bad world and it was you who made it look really beautiful…and now that you are not here…I feel coldness around me…I need the warmth of love…Come back baby…

Before I break down…wrap me in your arms…I am becoming a loner each day..I can’t understand myself…I have become stranger to myself…I feel lost in woods…I feel all alone..I need you…I need love …

pain is too much to bear

Pain is too much to bear......... 

Sometimes, the pain is too much to bear…I know everything…it’s just a matter of few days and we would be together forever, but the pain of staying away , being alone , no matter how many times we talk in a day. Looks like it’s been ages since I saw you last, since I felt your arms around me, since I felt your hands holding mine...Although, I stay strong, only I know what’s going on inside, how each day I want you more and more...How I convince myself and break   

down. I look at our picks together and end up crying…

Its been so long since I sent you a text saying “ I love you”

Yes , I am stupid…We do say I love you so many times a day..all the mails we send to each other end with it and hugs and kisses…but sending you texts several times a day was a special feeling..I could text you anytime…be it midnight , afternoon , early morning or late evenings…I miss texting you cause the super stupid U.S crowd charges you for receiving messages too…

Yes , My teddy is the only one whom I can hug these days..I look outside window and think about all the wonderful moments we had created together…This is the only way I can keep thinking about you without mom asking where am I lost or which world I am living in..you stupid,.idiot ..leppi..come back soon naaaaa…..or don’t tell me each day how much you miss me..it makes me feel like flying and coming to you….

You don’t know what all I do not to think of you…and end up missing you all the more…When I listen to songs, they remind me of you..When I read books, they remind me of you…when I watch movies, I feel like sleeping on your shoulders and hugging your left arm in both my arms...What we both love to do…So, I have actually stopped bothering myself…and my heart which fails to think about anything else than you…

me and my life

me and my life....If you have been a regular visitor on my blog...you know me much better than my closest friends know...yes,this is me..a simple and sweet girl shy in nature..introvert who desires to fly up high in the sky and not being noticed.i am one of those girls who do not look their best ,they do not much get worried about what they are wearing for the lavish party , what eye make up would suit the dress tonight or how can i grab hold of the attention of best man in the party..

I like being not being noticed , i become conscious when i feel i am stared.one of the traits of Capricorn girls , they are not as calm and content as they show it outside. I am someone who although talks about love most of the times and spread smiles wherever i go..but you can never know what's going on inside me.I could be brooding over something since months.i never forget things that have pinched me..i keep them with me always..knowingly or unknowingly..i can never let go the pain that someone gave me..

I believe in my dreams as much as i believe that i am real..i can breathe..i can walk and talk.I have new dreams each day...Dreams to me are a way to live...they let me get inside my soul's thoughts.I can know myself better through them.I dream of myself flying in the sky ,I dream of getting wept in the rain ,i dream of sleeping with my angel , i dream of dying a peaceful death...

Describing me without love is like reading a foreign language you never knew...love is what i breathe...i am someone who needs love slightly more than everyone else...yes, i am demanding when it comes to love..i want to be told i am loved each day.I want to feel like a princess in love...and if i can't , i am not in love..i would make life heavens..all i ask for is love...unconditional love...