Hope floats

" things seem to be falling at place and suddenly fall apart " love is not easy to be attained..one needs to give himself/herself completely.Understand the words "Completely " Let go all your ego ,your selfish interests ,no matter how trivial they are..

I am experiencing this stage of fighting for your love..one needs to be very patient as at times ,you have no other option but to see your relationship being disrespected ,being questioned and being strangulated...

If you're aren't sure of that person ..better avoid taking the risk..you'll have to see them bare with naked eyes...the past is going to haunt your future..nothing should be hidden..

There would be times when your parents would love them..but you'll have to go through the sharp criticism too..One thing that goes wrong can sink the entire ship ! You need to be strong..to make it happen..

Whatever happened..hope still floats..like oil on water..it whispers in my heart , " you are made for each other " just a few more steps..and your destination awaits..your new life is just about to begun...

worst has already happened..now what's left is going to be the best...hope is all i am holding on too..It's only in the worst of times ,you realize how genuine  your love is....the feeling of loosing you forever for a moment had almost killed me...

life is beautiful...it sometimes shows us the wounds it carries in her heart which scares us..making us believe its hard ,its uneasy but that's just an illusion..it simply is beautiful ! 

I am sure our union is god's will...we are a couple made in heavens...

Live ,Laugh ,Love - Life 

prayers..

The word “prayer” has often been trivialized by making it into a way of getting what you want. But here I use “prayer” as the umbrella word for any interior journeys or practices that allow you to experience faith, hope, and love within yourself. It is not a technique for getting things, a pious exercise that somehow makes God happy, or a requirement for entry into heaven. It is much more like practicing heaven now....

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and just when you know things are perfect..something happens...

true love is tested by God too....Its just not an easy way out...Can't write what happened..but something i had never imagined....so..all those who are jealous of me are currently very happy...as i am crying again...


all i know is if i do not get Angel as my life partner..i won't be needing this life tooo....I would lie down peacefully in my grave...waiting for the next birth...as my life is all about him...

everlasting smiles..

And the Love Cupid is in arranging things...for our union...so ,that we could start living together...


everything is going good as of now..."touch wood" these days i am really worried..to express or not to express...people who smile at your face curse you inside..


Angel is coming home to meet his in laws ..and we're going through the toughest stage before marriage..convincing parents and proving them we have choose the right one..


fingers crossed..i am sure things would fall in place..i am sure we would end up being together forever..just a matter of few months...




some day , when i would be 60 and he would be 63 , we would have our grown up children with us...I would come back here with spectacles trying to bring back the golden days...and reading my life here...and i am sure I would have the same smile on my face I have as a 23 year old girl...


life is unfolding...it has huge stocks of happiness for me..waiting for me to grasp and hold them...marrying your love - the contentment can't be expressed in words..it makes one feel complete..life seems to be dancing..


read the lines somewhere " choose  the guy who takes you to his house to meet his parents ,not his bedroom " They truly mean a lot..We tend to be stupid and selfless in love..but True Love is being loved more..When you can feel you no more need to take care of yourself..as someone would do that for you...


i could be childlike..you may claim i live in an illusion or fairy tale romance aren't true...but as long as you can believe in fairy tales , the universe around can create it too for you... Proud to be someone who lives in her own world...


It takes a wonderful soul to believe in miracles...It takes strong determination to keep hoping for the best , no matter what...It takes will power to create the world of your dreams...It takes undying and selfless love for someone  to find one for you...

dream came true...

And one of my dreams came true...to throw a party and be the most " beautiful couple " at the ball...to have all my loved ones around and have a galla time...


you make me feel beautiful....


you make me feel loved...


you make me feel pampered...


you care for me like your own child.....


you pay my bills like a husband.....


you scold me like  a dad....


you kiss me at the places i get hurt....


you let me sleep in your arms...

What i feel with you is complete bliss..Happiness is temporary...it awaits sadness..but Bliss simply is...It stays...It makes you happy from inside..

jab v met

And the happy days are here again...Angel is back and is filling my life with beautiful colors...It is such an ecstasy to be with you..to hold you in my arms...to cuddle you..to whisper in your ears...to tease you...to keep staring at you while driving...to punch you all of a sudden for no reason...pure bliss !


You're promoted in a relationship if your bf gets more worried to drop you home at time and you 're smiling at his worried look..Your incentives are the compliments when his friends say " you are perfect for him " and his sister tells you " you fit in perfectly in our family "


I am looking forward for a beautiful tomorrow which promises me endless smiles and purest of all love...as i am willing to make sacrifice and compromise for the new relationships that would add on in my life..isn't it wonderful how one relationship ..adds so many of them to your life..


i have started having this weird feeling that when i tell people about my relationship with him and expect them to be happy for me and wish me more love..i end up fighting more , crying more and cribbing a lot..


why ! may be i am wrong in believing they are happy for me..its a huge stage where people pretend to be someone they aren't..whatever..


i am content with my life..and those who are content don't need to be jealous.He is going to talk to his parents about our future tonight..our parents would be meeting soon for the knot to be tied between us..i would be officially his life partner ,his better half and sweetheart forever..and you would promise to be there for me forever...

annoyed and happy ...

yes , a girl can be annoyed and happy at the same time...i am annoyed as this wait is killing me...i can't wait to hold him in my arms..and now when i know he is a just a few miles away..i so can't wait !


i am happy..as he finally has reached ..we did talked like before...goodnight hugs and morning kisses...and his morning poetry for me..


i am annoyed as his cousins have already met him..they are spending some good moments with him at home...and i am still waiting...


we would be meeting in the evening today but god knows ,what mood i would be in....i don't wana spoil my so called " first date " with him after six months...because of my own anger...


jealousy and possessiveness seems to be growing in me each day..blame my love for you..it keeps increasing manifold...

just few more hours..

just a few more hours..and the six month long wait is going to end...we would be together again..in each other's arms..

          feeling happiest on the planet,and nervous as first time appearing for an exam ,lost as if i am living in another world ,i do not understand the languages being spoken ,waiting so desperately as if i would get a new life today..

3.30 pm...