Friday, March 30

BEING HAPPY :)

Being happy is a choice ,Once you've made the decision ,u'll find it evrywhr u go in evrythng u see n evrythng u do "

happiness is inside..everything outside would only hurt..Search for inner tranquility for it shall never go in vain.

love makes life worthwhile..you got to keep it alive somehow anyhow..love too fades with time..until it's not replenished each day. 

say somethin new each day and do something new

feel the childhood of your love and you'll feel more closer.

talk about college crushes and you'll know he alwayss searched for you in each girl

life is pretty simple..

alors danse

forget and dance.

french is fun..united states is etats unis.

It n'exist pas

It does not exist.

a book or a pen is he or she :p

but it's fun and older kind of form of english

J'aime PARIS :)

J'aime beacoup en FRANCE :)

i love PARIS :)

Wednesday, March 28

feeling sad,uselss and unappreciated !

Moments in Life when you feel like crying badly..When you need that someone to hug you tight and say everyhthing is gonna be fine..When you are tired of listening to the family drama accompanied by drama created by friends..

Nobody seems to care..I always beleive understanding is more important than caring..You claim to love someone but you can't understand them..it's loving half way..Talking about Mom here.She loves me a lot and moms are the ones who get worried for us the most but when they say something just opposite of how you feel,World seems to get shattered,Somehow they are our biggest strenght..when they are not there ,we feel shattered.

Restrictions do kill me..

I am a free bird and keeping me in cage would only make me closer to my death..

It's all somehow connected to my Angel.When he is there ,no pain can make me cry as the strenght of his love overpowers all the pain..

It's when i can't have much of him , i feel distressed. My bestest of friends are getting married.I feel i'll loose them in a way.There are new responsiblities and new relations to look forward after marriage ,friends do become a seond priority.And it hurts..

Actually ,when there is one thing hurtig you badly..Everything else seems to be imitating the same act.Everything does hurts .Either you are not understanding me Angel or you're just thinking about you !

I am actually tired of listening to the words " Everything would be fine soon " I really wana understand how soon is soon coming in my life..God ,please be there with me..Please,be there when everyone else leaves..

Tuesday, March 27

time seem to have stopped moving

Time has stopped moving somehow or it needs to move faster and faster..Yeah,I can't wait anymore..I am in no hurry to get married but i can't stay away either.Wish you were here

Wish you knew how much i miss you when i look at those couples huggging each other.
Wish you knew i hide inside rooms and lock myself up to cry silently.
Wish you knew it doesn't matter to me how much you earn in a month.
Wish you understood your parent's love is equally important to me.
Wish you knew how much it pains without you.
Wish you understood nobody in this world can care for me the way you do.
Wish you knew it's not the physical love but strenght i get from your touch that i need the most.

Wish..I wish..I could fly and come and hug you there as long as I can.
Wish you knew I can feel your tears when you smile too.
Wish You knew I know how difficult it is for you.
Wish we could just get a life of our dreams.
Wish you knew how my heart aches to see you sad.
Wish you knew I say stupid things just to see you smile

Wish I could ease my aching heart a little more.
Wish I was mature like you .
Wish we be the best lovers all over the universe.
Wish I bring up my kids with you.
Wish I grow old with you.
Wish I get up each day in your arms.
Wish our love goes on growing forever.
Wish nobody could affect our relationship.

I just whish to be with you...You are all i need to be alive...

i need you

There isn't anything i desire for but YOU .

i am loosing all faith...lossing all the optimism inside me..its hurting.I just want you to be back.just be back home.i am dying each day a bit inside.i am becoming more of a loner.

i can't be happy for everyone else now..somehwere i feel jealous of them,Freinds can't make me feel better .I desire to be alone or be with you.

Nothing..Life seems to be in vain..I need hugs ,Please bear with my intolerance and sad posts..I need to be heard..i need to be loved..

Friday, March 23

ewwww...

What the hell is happening around !!

Some bastard is sending mails from my gmail account..When i try posting on my blog from my cellphone..It posts it all as a title..

Google is so annoying now

Not liking it at all :(

Friday, March 16

You should speak up

Is it too much to ask for - speak what you feel ! i can't always read your mind.

Thursday, March 15

i am here and i am not too..

Yeah ,I could be one of the worst bloggers right now


I do not read anyone much..rarely do i cum here..i am realizing i am becoming a loner day by day ! Love can be "shitty" too at times.


I get jealous when i look at couples having great time together..after being in a committed relationship.my life is no less than a loner ..yeah.i am talking all negative stuff..no one would come to read me too now


nobody likes sad people..but i am happy here alone too..its a bliss to write down everything here..and the ones who read are not here to judge you neither to spread hum ours about you..nor are they going to laugh at your silliness..they are here to listen to you ,understand you and guide you


so,here i want to say a big thank you to each and everyone of you..somehow you made my life easier,


its a phase or say a day in my life when all inspiring quotes are merely irritating me..a day when i am trying to tell myself i am happy ,i get tears rolling down my cheeks..they can't be mood swings..its the feeling of being alone ,being not loved,being taken for granted ,being not able to make my dreams come true ,being being suffocated , the pukish feeling you get at times,IT KILLS !

Wednesday, March 14

Bella & Edward [ Umbrellas - Sleeping at Last ]

Love by HIM

A few words by my Love ;

God,Give me wings or power to travel with the light,
I wish to see my sweetheart every night,
I can't breathe without aroma of hers in the air,
I can't see without her presence when there is light,
God give me wings or power to travel with light 


Friday, March 9

delay

Why are things delayed over and over again..why isn't life the way we planned..why is destiny overpowering our dreams..why..why...why..


his coming back home is delayed again again..things are falling apart..i am tired of holding on together.I am answerable to my parents..they are worried for our future.


Angel is stuck too..i can blame him in no way..he is willing to leave everything for me but what if he still doesn't gets me ! 


when is the distance between us going to finally melt..i can't sleep at nights these days.i have become restless..i don't like talking to anyone at all..i don't enjoy doing things i loved to do..


its a slow poison..


We can't hug each other after a fight..we can't hold our hands and sit for hours..we can't see each other face to face..it's going to be a year now on 17th March..A year of being in a long distance relationship..It's not easy..just not easy..


Its killing me 

Sunday, March 4

PMS

mood swings at best - PMS
we start feeling very very sensitive..i go to the extent of " touch me not " and " talk to me not " even " talk not about me "


had a fight with Angel :(


Mom and me are behaving like Teenagers :p fighting over petty things.She seems to be worried for something she can't share with me..I can see the pain in her eyes..


I am proud to be WOMAN..we bear so much silently.


I cry every time Angel and me have a fight ,but we patch up within few hours thankfully


He said something very sweet today - My Wife ,you will always be my girlfriend ! :)


I want to get married to him soon soon soon 


Love makes you Complete..There could not be anything more satisfying in life than true love..its a bliss..


Almighty ,Let me write a post for my Marriage soon :p I can't ..I just can't wait..


Marriage is cute too ,You share your things with someone who is opposite of what siblings were..Guys love to see their rooms getting colourful all of a sudden,the sweet smell that stays there as someone has filled in the cupboards with sweet smelling perfumes and lipsticks.


Girls ,on the other hand love to do li"l things for him..Be it handing over the towel in bathroom or selecting which shirt to wear or waiting for hubby for the dinner..


Can't believe.its me who had marriage phobia..i am in love with the idea of living with him.Touchwood !


I start my posts with something and end with something exactly opposite and often headings have nothing to do with the content :p :) God bless all !

Friday, March 2

i feel ashamed..

Read a cousin brother's facebook account's messages..I did wrong..


But..that makes me hate MEN again !


He is so very protective about me..but the way he talks about girls is shitty..Such vulgar and abusive language i never heard or read before..He is being with the worst friends..the group of men who know nothing else than f---k around..i am feeling torn inside..


For every other girl..You are using such "dirty words"..your friends call you a gay if you're virgin as 18 !! This is the Generation Y !! 



Thursday, March 1

Moments that make up Life ;


To clear a competitive exam you never studied for :p


To start writing a note in diary in a sad mood and end it saying - I love myself and I love my Life


To listen your Lover saying - The only thing I hate is you taking me for granted :p


To sit alone and smile think of beautiful moments


To feel Angels by your side showering love on you


To know that you make people happier when you talk to them :)


To feel loved and admired by God himself..


Not to worry about what people think about you and give them a f---k


To feel wowwww


To know someone wants you as badly as you need them..


To read blogs and feel the happiest on earth


To collect quotes that are a delicacy to your soul itself..


Simple joys of life...listening to birds chirping..


Wasting hours on facebook..feeling glad you have the TIME !