dreams of being together as one..I had dreams of being a loving daughter in law for his parents.I always thought of a perfect family , a perfect married life even when i had not met him.Meeting him changed my life :) he was a dream come true..I started living in my own dream world as my prince charming came into my real life from the dreamworld..
I forgot i can't stay there in my dreams always..i will have to face the reality.When we made up our mind to get married ,destiny had plans to test us.If you've been reading me since long ,you know i have waited for an year now for him to return back to India.somehow things seem to be falling apart but i ain't giving up .He is my only angel and we'll be together by hook or by crook.
Some bastards and bitches are making up stories and causing problems between our families.His mom thinks i am one of those girls who date guys for **** reasons.we did everything to convince her ! She believes i would spoil their family ..and god knows what all.you know the feeling when you're blamed for something you never did or have no intention ever of doing it.
parents are waiting for me to give them a final answer as of what's going on between us.It's only time that would make her understand i love only angel and he is my life.i won't be breathing without him.Things get worse when he goes quiet.he does that when his stress overcomes his ability to take any more.
patience ,faith and trust on each other...
All we need for the moment..holding on to each other.waiting for the storm to pass..and rainbow of happiness to shine and make our lives colourful I am not giving up ,fighting till I can..Things would be awesome some day.God made us meet for a reason..to be there for each other forever..
Glad ,There are a few things that always make me smile :)
I might be going through the roughest phase of mah life but I am believing that everything shall fall in place soon
I might be having a worst fight with Him each day I am believing we are meant to be together still
You cannot bring what you want to you if you are feeling stress. Stress or any tension at all is something you have to remove from your system.
You must let the stress go - it is the only way you can bring what you want. The emotion of stress is saying strongly that you do NOT have what you want. Stress or tension is the absence of faith, and so to remove it all you have to do is increase your faith!
May the joy be with you
The lines above made my decision stronger !Decision to stay with him , no matter what happens
We won't let our dreams get shattered for anyone in this world....
We are meant to be Together because there isn't a day a i don't get that sign from God that he is the one he made for me :)
Just a little patience , a lot of trust on each other and immense faith on God and we'll be there together forever :)
I saw Titanic in 3D today..alone.Kind of started enjoying being alone , be it shopping or watching movies or just talking to self
And i realised today ,I am being strong way too much.I had heavy burden of pain in my heart which had to be released through tears.It always feels better once you have cried your heart.
I don't loose temper much ,but when i do , I am way too much a DRama Queen ! It was a day when i was browsing my phonebook and wondering there isn't a single friend who would be there to listen to my sorrows or wipe away my tears.Not blaming them ofcourse ,but I am like that.I don't share mcuh when it comes to angel.I believe no one else can understand our relationship better than us.I could have been wrong.At times ,you need to discuss and talk and relate even compare ,that's how you'll know where you went wrong.
I went wrong in fighting with him ,complainig to him for things that aren't working.
He ain't wrong.All the sacrifices he is doing is for us..Someone who is willing to leave his parents for me could not be wrong in our relationship.It's the circumstamces that are not suitable.I won't be alive without him.I can't imagine a single day of my life without him.
He is the one who cares for me more than i care for myself.One who wants to fulfil all my dreams some day.Someone who understands me more than anypone in this whole world could.We need to support each other and stand for each other.Destiny has kept happpiness , life long happiness for us .
Guys...You have your Bucket List ? It's a grand list of things you swear to yourslef you'll do before dying
I guess ,It's time to revise mine..I have a new Bucket list every six months..lol ;)
I want to be madly in love with Angel all my Life :) I want to bring up my kids with him..I want to live each and every moment with him like Forever :)
I want to visit my dream place ,Paris :)
I want to be a Lecturer at Delhi University with a very handsome package and a handsome man standing next to me ( I mean Angek only :p)
I want to look Beautiful inside and outside always..I never feared getting old because there is a beauty of old age itself..I find my grandmom exceptionally beautiful with her grey hairs ,pink lips and soft tiny hands that bless me :)
Want to keep my Friends Forver with me..I fear loosing them
I wanted to learn French and I am doing that ,Thanks to God !
I want to walk ramp some day..hehe..Although ,I 'm not in great shape,neither I have got extra ordinary looks but it's a secret wish of mine
A butterfly tatoo on my back :)
To get married in a Church wearing the most beautiful eva white gown and kissing him infornt of everyone :)
He is a shy one ,so kissing him infront of all would be a Dream come True :) ;)
Aaah...I want to have my own Library .Books are like very very close to my heart !
I want to have some 100 footwears in my wardrobe ;) I am crazy about bags and footwears :)
Enough for today ! :) Aah..feels great just jotting them down..Go and revive yours Bucket List !
Write down all the great things about everyone you know. Make a huge list of all the wonderful things about you. Compliment people wherever you go. Praise every single thing you see. Be a ray of sunshine to everyone you meet, and make their day better for having seen you. Say "Thank you" at every turn. Walk, talk, think, and breathe appreciation and gratitude.
I want to sleep with you. I don't mean have sex. I mean sleep. Together. Under the blankets. In my bed. With my hand on your chest and your arm around me. With the window cracked, so it's chilly and we have to cuddle closer. No talking, just sleepy, blissfully happy, in silence
Solitude is a choice to me today , I go quiet when i am hurt beyond what I deserved.Any gurl who claims to care for you is a rebel to me now.I am over possessive about angel ,he is the best man i know when it comes to loyalty.He would never cheat me for any girl in this whole Universe and that's what makes me all the more worried as many would like to have such a Man.
So,here i went silent.You said all the things that make me smile and blush and love you more.You tried your best to make me happier and change my mood but I choose solitude for myself. i want to be alone for sometime.
He goes for a long drive when he can't take anymore..I become a quieter one when i can't take any more.One negative thought can create blunders inside me ,giving birth to million new negative things :( so, it's a very dangerous and explosive state to me - Negativity.
Although , a few hours spent alone , a few great quotes and a few memories that make me happier are quite allot to get me back to myself..the happy me :)
i am going through this phase..trying to be back to positive side of me..Angel said he will be back before a month .He said he will be talking to his dad about our roka and that he really can't live without me alone but nothing could soothe my aching heart.
I need solitude...it's a slow medicine to my aching heart. Some greatest of friendships get destroyed when someone tries to interfere in a love relationship.No matter , how good you have been always to me as a friend ,for once if you're the reason for fight between me and him , i would take no time hating you.
A real dark side of me is this - I can't tolerate any shit between me and him.
- Blessed to have a few great friends and a wonderful Family :) Had some beautiful moments with my cousins ,everyone these days is worried about my marriage and it somehow annoys me and I go and annoy HIM
okay.a contradictory statement, i need to be brief.Joy of life lies is simplest of moments ,lying down in bed and caressing your sister and talking about childhood days ,some stupid things only they know and we would never share with friends :p when you can feel on top of the world for a : mango shake " that wa shared by three of you ! to make fun of each other ,hug ,kiss and bitch about someone you hate incredibly..aah...this is wat makes me love mah life :)
i am a very shy person.i blush when i hear his name,i hide myself inside the pillow when he says he misses touching me ;) so, i am not very open about our relationship too..when my just friends or cousins ask me stories as in how you met and who proposed ,my cheeks go red and i am very quiet.I feel those moments are very precious even to share..lol and i believe in nazar too,even your best friend somewhere feels jealous of you even if she never says.
I would too..
that's pretty pretty normal.I miss him a lot :( cause there are a hundred things we do when we are together.just the fact that he is here makes me happier ! and now when we would be together ,it would be forever :) this makes me smile a bit wider :)
although marriages scare me a lot but for the sake of living with him,i am willing to let go evrtthing and everyone
twilight is not just a romantic stuff movie or novel to me..it's something that pacifies me inside..it's an escape to me from the lonely life i am living these days..
Read a few favourite blogs and all the love posts makes me go awww aww and awww :) I am very happy for all the folks whu truly ,sincerely and madly love each other.Madness is essential in love..it is.
No doubt i love mahesh bhatt movies because his heroes have that passion and intense love affairs :) and hot mushy scenes ofcourse.
It's been months we had seen each other or hugged or kissed.He says that's what the true test of love is , we can afford to stay away for a few months as whole life awaits for us.
But i feel different about it.Courtship Days are the most precious moments ,a little more vulnerable than spending nights togther as husband and wife.Dating each other,getting flowers and chocolates,holding hands at places,searching for lonely places to steal a kiss in car,rushing back home to be at time,telling stories to mom about how you got late..Isn't all that more fun than being a marriee couple.
The precious moments of my life are going waiting for us to be together.
And above all ,I had only friends here ,a few of them to be there for me and they all are getting married too..Okay.Am i talking too much about "Marriage " It could be,i AM already been accused of that But That culd be a stage..I am 24 now.I need him to be with me.
I might be talking all rubbish..I am weird nowadays..Right now,what's on my mind is "Love making " and if not that :"Shopping " Only two things can make me feel better and Shopping seems to be the only option left :p