In Love with Life :)

PMS

2012-03-04T02:29:00.000-08:00

mood swings at best - PMS
we start feeling very very sensitive..i go to the extent of " touch me not " and " talk to me not " even " talk not about me "

had a fight with Angel :(

Mom and me are behaving like Teenagers :p fighting over petty things.She seems to be worried for something she can't share with me..I can see the pain in her eyes..

I am proud to be WOMAN..we bear so much silently.

I cry every time Angel and me have a fight ,but we patch up within few hours thankfully

He said something very sweet today - My Wife ,you will always be my girlfriend ! :)

I want to get married to him soon soon soon

Love makes you Complete..There could not be anything more satisfying in life than true love..its a bliss..

Almighty ,Let me write a post for my Marriage soon :p I can't ..I just can't wait..

Marriage is cute too ,You share your things with someone who is opposite of what siblings were..Guys love to see their rooms getting colourful all of a sudden,the sweet smell that stays there as someone has filled in the cupboards with sweet smelling perfumes and lipsticks.

Girls ,on the other hand love to do li"l things for him..Be it handing over the towel in bathroom or selecting which shirt to wear or waiting for hubby for the dinner..

Can't believe.its me who had marriage phobia..i am in love with the idea of living with him.Touchwood !

I start my posts with something and end with something exactly opposite and often headings have nothing to do with the content :p :) God bless all !

i feel ashamed..

2012-03-02T04:14:00.001-08:00

Read a cousin brother's facebook account's messages..I did wrong..

But..that makes me hate MEN again !

He is so very protective about me..but the way he talks about girls is shitty..Such vulgar and abusive language i never heard or read before..He is being with the worst friends..the group of men who know nothing else than f---k around..i am feeling torn inside..

For every other girl..You are using such "dirty words"..your friends call you a gay if you're virgin as 18 !! This is the Generation Y !!

2012-03-01T03:28:00.001-08:00

Moments that make up Life ;

To clear a competitive exam you never studied for :p

To start writing a note in diary in a sad mood and end it saying - I love myself and I love my Life

To listen your Lover saying - The only thing I hate is you taking me for granted :p

To sit alone and smile think of beautiful moments

To feel Angels by your side showering love on you

To know that you make people happier when you talk to them :)

To feel loved and admired by God himself..

Not to worry about what people think about you and give them a f---k

To feel wowwww

To know someone wants you as badly as you need them..

To read blogs and feel the happiest on earth

To collect quotes that are a delicacy to your soul itself..

Simple joys of life...listening to birds chirping..

Wasting hours on facebook..feeling glad you have the TIME !

2012-02-28T02:14:00.000-08:00

Paris is my new Love <3 learning a new language and its great to know about a different culture ..

I made some new friends and we hang out a lot

I have changed in a way..i value my time..i love being with myself..sipping coffee alone and looking at morons..

This could be " Maturity " when you can stay alone and be happy..

Money and happiness are complimentary..i have realized too.

Issues that were not even issues before come and collide you because money isn't there.

A friend who was crying over her love a week back is getting married to a stranger..the one she loved never did loved her .It feels horrible to even think of what she is going through at the moment..

There is a guy who is always there in your thoughts and you marry a stranger..

I call it "FORCED ARRANGE MARRIAGE " .To an extent , she is doing wrong to herself being too quick in a decision like marriage,but parents are the only one left to trust ..

Love can make you happiest and can make you worst too..

where are my readers !

2012-02-27T03:28:00.001-08:00

where are you allll !!!!!!

sometimes..you don't know how you are feeling inside..

2012-02-24T01:26:00.000-08:00

Sometimes ,you don't know how you are feeling inside..

i am surrounded by happy people yet i don't get the positive vibes from them..i am blesses in a way that i can immediately make out what kind of person i am meeting with without having a word.its the vibrations i get from them..

i am not kind of getting good vibes from people around.

herbey..I ask you God for immense love ,happiness and peace of mind to be showered on each one of us..

we all are going through the same phase...its only you who can fill our souls back with love..

My Valentine Gift to Him :))

2012-02-14T04:11:00.001-08:00

Sweetheart

Blessed was the day i saw You

Bliss of my Life begins with You

I breathe in and take you inside

I breathe out and think of you

Take pride in how far we have come

And keep faith in how far can we reach

Because ,there never would be

A Good reason for two of us to be apart

No matter ,how many miles away you are

It takes just a thought to feel you aside

Somewhere,you and me are One

As i never feel far from you

I feel tied to you through invisible power

As if God himself plays the Cupid

When i close my eyes , i see you

When i open them , i search for you

I can hear beyond your words

Can feel beyond your touch

Looking into your eyes

My world seems to be Merrier

Your arms lend me shelter ,sky can't

A kiss cleanses my soul ,rains can't

A look into your eyes ,my life ahead seems worthwhile

Most enchanting music to me ears is voice of you

I may not be Perfect

I don't understand you sometimes

I can be a pain too at times

But my Love is unconditional

You're an ancient visionary soul to me

One capable of healing the pain

You are very much within me

Parting from you is letting go a part of me

You were there with me even before we met

Exact replica of my imagination is Yo

You are a treasure which was hidden within me

A pure bliss from God which came in form of You

A Treasure ,I wanted to hide from everyone

Not realizing ,it shines through my eyes

A Treasure which made me Princess in a day

Love which was too much to hold on

Your Love made me feel i am beautiful

It gives me strength to overcome

Your love fills up my heart and soul

An emotion which manifolds each day

FAKE...FAKE...FAKE..

2012-02-06T03:42:00.000-08:00

God is on a mission with me ,

He is helping me get rid of all dirty people in my life...

i can clearly divide my friends in two categories - real and fake.

Fake are hundreds in number and real can be counted on finger tips..

eeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

super annoyed....

bitchy women....

I never have seen guys breaking hearts so badly as women do..

and they call man " heartless" omg !!

And Couples who fight up...sorry...uncle aunty who fight for petty issuess...eeaaakkkkkkk

a husband reads her wife's messages...where a girl had asked for help regarding her boyfriend..and the husband shouts and beats her..dare you helped her.

hahaha

tum log couple ho...pyar krte ho..my foot...

India is a country with least number of divorces but definitely maximum number of unhappy married couples...

:)

2012-02-03T03:51:00.001-08:00

Read Alchemist and Aleph by Paulo Coehlo !

He is one beautiful soul on earth who came to bless us all...

Its such an inspiring work ...feels so good after reading him.

Although , to completely understand i might need to go through three more times..

we keep ignoring the voice of our heart and intuition...and the result is they go quiet..and that's where the suffering begins..

tell your heart , not to go silent...listen to him..its the voice of god himself..and you'll never regret !

life and me..

2012-02-02T03:22:00.000-08:00

life ...unfolds each day..and it all seems o be same for me these days..

i am doing nothing and while doing nothing i am coming closer to where i want to be...strange....

Some friends showed they weren't friends...some enemies were the ones who cared..

Love of my life still stays far off lands..

sometimes , i feel all alone and other times ,the best company is myself..

love makes us a better human being..fall in love for once..

hope for the best !

no matter how many times you fall down ,pick yourself up..

make someone smile..

think of good old days...

be kind to animals..

while running the race of life , don't forget to rest for a while..

slow down and look at life passing by..

be grateful for all that god blessed you with...

ask him with full rights what all you want...

live ,laugh and love...

life was meant to be about happiness..about peace...about self knowledge..

where are you leading your life...

think...

it's never to late to come back home.....

ven nthng else heals my pain , i cum bak here..

2012-01-08T03:11:00.000-08:00

Sorry frenz,
i had been away from blogging since long , have not heard from all of you since long , miss reading your spaces too..

i had to be back..as my pain is killing me inside..2012 had started as worst as it could be..saw two deaths in a month , lost an aunt , a very dear one , she was too young to go..

and now , my nest friend , my secret holder , my all time favorite ,my pet , Jill left us all on January 6.She was like my own child ,such a calm baby she was..never did hurt a single soul..

nobody is there to receive me home licking my arms n feet ,wagging her tails and the unconditional love to share..she was an angel who brought happiness to our lives , never did anything that could bring us pain..

i should not compare..but i have seen dogs who create mess at the home they live..we could leave Jill all day long at home alone and never worry a thing would be missing..

she was a beautiful soul..all my relatives and friends had tears in their eyes when they came to know about her..she had such immense love and attachment with everyone around..

and in those moments of terrible pain , you realize how strong family bonds you have..We hide in bathrooms and cry , so that mom won't see us cry..the pain would multiply for her as one child is dead and other three are in pain..

we talk about all the things...yet we have only Jill in our minds..we are trying to hide the pain so that another could heal..

they are such beautiful animals..dogs indeed are man's best friend..he was born at our home , we delighted to hear her bark for the first time , we used to sit all around her when she just learned to walk to see whom she reaches first..how can one let go all those lovely memories..

we did applied tika to her at all pooja's at home ..she was a family..always..

why did god took away her from us ? ? why ??

all i wish is she takes a rebirth as a princess somewhere,may all the world's happiness kiss her feet...she was such a wonderful soul..

she was the one who came and constantly kept barking on me when she saw me crying..till i wept them and smiled..

she won't be back ever again..it pains my heart..it kills me inside..all we are left with is memories of having a small angel at our home :)

may god bless her with all the happiness ,love and care..she was a gem..

life ditches one and all

2011-12-18T23:56:00.001-08:00

Life ditches one and all

Get me one single man in this world ,

who was loved by life.

she ditches one and all ,

she is a "bitch".

"Life is what you make of it ",

Oh..really..try keeping it forever.

If its so in our hands ,

why it has to leave all in a mess.

All we are left with are " memories" ,

and tears in our eyes .

helpless ,nothing can be done ,

we are mere mortal humans.

why is it that one person who dies ,

takes away lives of many around .

our lives are the never the same again ,

yet we say " life goes on ".

somewhere inside you die each day ,

the void in your life which never gets filled .

life ,stands there and laughs at me ,

you though - i was yours .

one more a lesson ,i learnt today ,

don't wait for things to happen.

i wonder ,do souls too regret ,

wish i could have lived my life.

mothers were created as god could not be there ,

do you promise to be there now ?

can you take hold of the family ?

are you willing to be a " mom ".

I doubt ,you are capable of that love ,

you were amazed at your own creation.

all the love ,if re collected at a place ,

is tiny particle for mother's love

Get me one single man in this world ,

who was loved by life.

she ditches one and all ,

she is a "bitch".

solace in solitude...

2011-12-16T06:27:00.000-08:00

solace in solitude...

de activated my facebook account ! feeling a bit relieved...a bit awkward...

but need some time for myself....

right and wrong !

2011-12-13T01:07:00.000-08:00

Sometimes the wrong choices brings us to the right people !

I truly believe in the lines above...

happliciouss

2011-11-27T03:36:00.000-08:00

the kind of goosebumps we get after coming back home from a friend's wedding...we all are mature adults now..but still we can re create those childish moments when we gang up together...pleasure of being friends..

a close frnd got married..and she was looking like a pretty doll..i have so much to do before the d day..i need to be in shape..i wana look the prettiest i ever looked before...so that none could have the courage to take their eyes away from me..aaah...my silly dreams...

and unknowingly...they all come true...i feared being the first in my gang to get married...one of my collegues just got married..another school friend who is very close to my heart is getting tied in knots too...so..the delay in mine could be due to my secret wishes of getting married after a few friends are done..

we create destinty...one more instance...

angel has left for u.s again..but this time it was him who had tears in his eyes...my pain is inside..or i am letting it not come out..but there is instilled deep faith inside my soul that we'll be together soon...this would be the last test we need to pass...the last distance between us..the last time we are parted by destiny...

i have immense faith in god...as he had always fulfiled all my wishes...i have faith in god..

i need prayers...

v need time...

2011-11-22T02:42:00.000-08:00

It will take time...

we are waiting...as we do not want to begin our new lives by annoying our loved ones...

we are waiting for you all to say " YES "

testing..testing...god testing...

2011-11-10T00:46:00.000-08:00

Dear God ,
You are testing our love...You needs to be sure yourself ! I have complete faith in you...

Its you who sent the Angel in my life and its you who would make him stay for forever...I have undying faith in you....

sick , tired , annoyed...

2011-11-03T00:19:00.000-07:00

oh..i am sooo soooo tired of waiting...have i asked for the whole world to sink in an ocean..naaah...nt yet..just that i want to live with my love..is it too much to ask for ?

super annoyed...i am tired of all the questions my friends asks me ,tired of all the worries mom carries while talking to me...tired of listening " wait " ...

I feel Angel is taking things lightly..or he is hiding something from me which he suspects would hurt me..he needs to go back to U.S..and the wait still continues..feels like estragon and vladmir in " waiting for godott"

is there anyone who understands me...who cares to see behind my smile...

Hope floats

2011-10-31T03:05:00.000-07:00

" things seem to be falling at place and suddenly fall apart " love is not easy to be attained..one needs to give himself/herself completely.Understand the words "Completely " Let go all your ego ,your selfish interests ,no matter how trivial they are..

I am experiencing this stage of fighting for your love..one needs to be very patient as at times ,you have no other option but to see your relationship being disrespected ,being questioned and being strangulated...

If you're aren't sure of that person ..better avoid taking the risk..you'll have to see them bare with naked eyes...the past is going to haunt your future..nothing should be hidden..

There would be times when your parents would love them..but you'll have to go through the sharp criticism too..One thing that goes wrong can sink the entire ship ! You need to be strong..to make it happen..

Whatever happened..hope still floats..like oil on water..it whispers in my heart , " you are made for each other " just a few more steps..and your destination awaits..your new life is just about to begun...

worst has already happened..now what's left is going to be the best...hope is all i am holding on too..It's only in the worst of times ,you realize how genuine your love is....the feeling of loosing you forever for a moment had almost killed me...

life is beautiful...it sometimes shows us the wounds it carries in her heart which scares us..making us believe its hard ,its uneasy but that's just an illusion..it simply is beautiful !

I am sure our union is god's will...we are a couple made in heavens...

Live ,Laugh ,Love - Life

prayers..

2011-10-27T04:29:00.000-07:00

The word “prayer” has often been trivialized by making it into a way of getting what you want. But here I use “prayer” as the umbrella word for any interior journeys or practices that allow you to experience faith, hope, and love within yourself. It is not a technique for getting things, a pious exercise that somehow makes God happy, or a requirement for entry into heaven. It is much more like practicing heaven now....

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2011-10-22T09:58:00.000-07:00

and just when you know things are perfect..something happens...

true love is tested by God too....Its just not an easy way out...Can't write what happened..but something i had never imagined....so..all those who are jealous of me are currently very happy...as i am crying again...

all i know is if i do not get Angel as my life partner..i won't be needing this life tooo....I would lie down peacefully in my grave...waiting for the next birth...as my life is all about him...

everlasting smiles..

2011-10-20T02:10:00.000-07:00

And the Love Cupid is in arranging things...for our union...so ,that we could start living together...

everything is going good as of now..."touch wood" these days i am really worried..to express or not to express...people who smile at your face curse you inside..

Angel is coming home to meet his in laws ..and we're going through the toughest stage before marriage..convincing parents and proving them we have choose the right one..

fingers crossed..i am sure things would fall in place..i am sure we would end up being together forever..just a matter of few months...

some day , when i would be 60 and he would be 63 , we would have our grown up children with us...I would come back here with spectacles trying to bring back the golden days...and reading my life here...and i am sure I would have the same smile on my face I have as a 23 year old girl...

life is unfolding...it has huge stocks of happiness for me..waiting for me to grasp and hold them...marrying your love - the contentment can't be expressed in words..it makes one feel complete..life seems to be dancing..

read the lines somewhere " choose the guy who takes you to his house to meet his parents ,not his bedroom " They truly mean a lot..We tend to be stupid and selfless in love..but True Love is being loved more..When you can feel you no more need to take care of yourself..as someone would do that for you...

i could be childlike..you may claim i live in an illusion or fairy tale romance aren't true...but as long as you can believe in fairy tales , the universe around can create it too for you... Proud to be someone who lives in her own world...

It takes a wonderful soul to believe in miracles...It takes strong determination to keep hoping for the best , no matter what...It takes will power to create the world of your dreams...It takes undying and selfless love for someone to find one for you...

dream came true...

2011-10-17T00:57:00.001-07:00

And one of my dreams came true...to throw a party and be the most " beautiful couple " at the ball...to have all my loved ones around and have a galla time...

you make me feel beautiful....

you make me feel loved...

you make me feel pampered...

you care for me like your own child.....

you pay my bills like a husband.....

you scold me like a dad....

you kiss me at the places i get hurt....

you let me sleep in your arms...

What i feel with you is complete bliss..Happiness is temporary...it awaits sadness..but Bliss simply is...It stays...It makes you happy from inside..

jab v met

2011-10-13T02:41:00.000-07:00

And the happy days are here again...Angel is back and is filling my life with beautiful colors...It is such an ecstasy to be with you..to hold you in my arms...to cuddle you..to whisper in your ears...to tease you...to keep staring at you while driving...to punch you all of a sudden for no reason...pure bliss !

You're promoted in a relationship if your bf gets more worried to drop you home at time and you 're smiling at his worried look..Your incentives are the compliments when his friends say " you are perfect for him " and his sister tells you " you fit in perfectly in our family "

I am looking forward for a beautiful tomorrow which promises me endless smiles and purest of all love...as i am willing to make sacrifice and compromise for the new relationships that would add on in my life..isn't it wonderful how one relationship ..adds so many of them to your life..

i have started having this weird feeling that when i tell people about my relationship with him and expect them to be happy for me and wish me more love..i end up fighting more , crying more and cribbing a lot..

why ! may be i am wrong in believing they are happy for me..its a huge stage where people pretend to be someone they aren't..whatever..

i am content with my life..and those who are content don't need to be jealous.He is going to talk to his parents about our future tonight..our parents would be meeting soon for the knot to be tied between us..i would be officially his life partner ,his better half and sweetheart forever..and you would promise to be there for me forever...

annoyed and happy ...

2011-10-05T01:07:00.000-07:00

yes , a girl can be annoyed and happy at the same time...i am annoyed as this wait is killing me...i can't wait to hold him in my arms..and now when i know he is a just a few miles away..i so can't wait !

i am happy..as he finally has reached ..we did talked like before...goodnight hugs and morning kisses...and his morning poetry for me..

i am annoyed as his cousins have already met him..they are spending some good moments with him at home...and i am still waiting...

we would be meeting in the evening today but god knows ,what mood i would be in....i don't wana spoil my so called " first date " with him after six months...because of my own anger...

jealousy and possessiveness seems to be growing in me each day..blame my love for you..it keeps increasing manifold...

just few more hours..

2011-10-03T22:18:00.000-07:00

just a few more hours..and the six month long wait is going to end...we would be together again..in each other's arms..

feeling happiest on the planet,and nervous as first time appearing for an exam ,lost as if i am living in another world ,i do not understand the languages being spoken ,waiting so desperately as if i would get a new life today..

3.30 pm...

i m here , u r thr , one of us is in the wrong place

2011-09-30T01:59:00.000-07:00

read the lines somewhere and they are so stuck in my heart...

i am here , you are there - one of us is in the wrong place

can't express but what i am feeling at the moment is a strange feeling...i have actually never felt ever before ! i am lost , the happiness is too much to express..the fear resides in my heart...of being accepted by the new family..worries about the new home and new life to come..

there is so much to share with him, so much to do when he is here and there is a weird feeling..of how would i handle this happiness..if i am expecting too much , would i get hurt too !

he said today , " i had to come cause mom dad are not happy , you aren't happy ,I see your worried face in my dreams " .he has proved it that family matters to him more than money..

and we had lovey dovey talks early in the morning..when i was half asleep...in baby like voice..we did hugged for long...through phone..i am craving for you...we love doing simple , silly things..nose to nose..kiss on ears..moving fingers in hairs...playing with each other's fingers ,having thumb fights,lying down in each other's arms , hiding inside blankets and whispering i love you..

even silliest of all , i love having ice creams with him..the way he looks at me and the way i blush..the way he says you looked beautiful when you were removing hairs from your cheeks ,you looked gorgeous when the headlights fell on you and you cheeks shined with a tint of red , the way i tell him i want to see your dimple smile , how i suddenly get myself wrapped in his arms , how i look at our hands together and how perfectly mine fits in yours...how madly i am in love with you...

there are unsaid things between us..we both understand but never said...when a guy tries to steal a look of mine from the car running next to us..and i can see you speeding up ,all of a sudden with that angry look and when i ask you " what" all you say is nothing...

i know you love me when i say stupid things that make you laugh...you do know sometimes ,i say them knowingly just to see you smile...just like one yesterday..

me - i have to go shopping..i don't have any clothes to wear.
him - really ! what are keeps lying in the cupboard then ..
me - vo sab gande hain
him - dho lo unhe
me - nahi
him - mitti me kheli thi tum..jo kapde gande ho gaye..
me - hehehe..

we are cute ! actually , i make you cute..hehehe...but yeah , i can't imagine a day without you..and i am dying to start our new life together.

missing mumaa..

2011-09-27T22:46:00.000-07:00

days without mumma...so so so so tough...You get up early in the morning...rush to the kitchen to do dishes..read headlines in news paper as you have no time to go through your all time favorite column..spend time thinking not about what to wear today but what to cook for the breakfast...

and if you have annoying siblings at home..who need to be shaken up 10 times so that they stop dreaming and get up...life without mom..i swear !

mom always used to tell me...you are gonna realize soon...I did..I did...

remember those days,mom came running after me with lunch in her hands...and fruits in another..and me cribbing...no...no..no.....i don't want fruits...how can i eat soo much maaaa....naaaaahhhhhh

and within no time..she comes back again with curd ..uffffff....

And i sooo much miss you mom...Dad is recovering too..Hope he gets perfectly well..Am I too much of : Family oriented person ! could be...i love being loved...and this is where you get unconditional love...no expectations at all...I value relationships above everything...

He is coming ...next week...Dying to write a post after our date ....We have started loving each other more..The distance between us ,staying apart for six months made our relation stronger...

Angel cares for my family a lot..He was more worried about my mom than I was..he wanted me to pack the lunch and breakfast for her as mom won't be taking care of herself .so i should..

Chatted with my best est cousins yesterday..they all are looking forward for the D Day... everyone is so excited..isn't it beautiful when your cousins tease you by his name...hihihi....I am love sick..can't stop expressing myself...

oh..did i mention..i just love being clicked with him..and the way my skin glows when i am with him can't be described...so..for the best pics ,i just need to stand beside him..awwww....crazy me...lolzzzz

love brings out the best in us...i truly believe...

peace...

2011-09-27T03:31:00.000-07:00

i need prayers..

2011-09-25T21:33:00.000-07:00

Dad is getting operated today for knee replacement surgery...

I need prayers ...

thinking....ummmmmm....

2011-09-22T03:30:00.000-07:00

Feeling " eeeeewwwwwww"

I am so hell bored ..life seems to be stuck..not moving..I often imagine about death these days..I am curious to know who all would be affected..

Today morning ,mom and dad dropped me at office..As usual ,i opened the door without looking back what's coming on my way on the Delhi road..They both shouted , " dekh k utro beta " there truly is nobody who can take their place..no matter you have the world's best boyfriend.

I am so hell attached to everyone..I wonder my soul would keep coming back here..Certain friends consider the love and concern of parents as interference.I have been brought up in such a way that I never had to live without them..I am still a child for them who could be attracted through a chocolate..lol

I feel jealous..I want the ones I love to be only mine..I can't share..Naahh..I really can't..It could be hell stupid but I feel jealous even when his sister says he does not wants to share his time..

I know..He values me the most..And God's forbid ,If i had to live without him , i had rather be a nun and never get married to anyone else..What all the hell I am thinking about ??

eh !

mood swings...

me @ office

2011-09-21T02:41:00.000-07:00

My Manager calls me a "baby"

Quite unbelievable but i did cried in office today in a team meeting..I can't take so much pressure..Negative influences upon me had been too much..i swear !

I ain't strong..I give up too easily..But Its not the case with me in relationships..i hold on till the end..May be the reason is I am still not in my dream job..I am in my struggling phase..but have you seen a princess struggling...they can't..they are soft and docile..lol

I truly believe i deserve the best..nothing less than it..I have been very casual in my jobs..I have left them for minor reasons..I have been unlucky too..in the kinds of job i took up...whatever !!

I guess , we all go through this weird stage initially...And I am just not a Corporate Material.I can't do Oh...Hello Mr.Gupta , can we throw this meek girl out " I can't wear faces..I can't control my tears..I can't keep smiling at you even when you throw bullshit on me..I don't give a damn..May be I'll keep thousand people like you under me..You just don't know what I am..

I behaved like a innocent child but I told my Boss on face , " What are your job responsibilities if I am doing all your work , I had better be a Manager than " And i am not feeling guilty of what i said..I feel Proud !!

lol ! I could be stupid but I value myself much more than the penny you give me on first on each month.

these days..i have nothing much to say...

2011-09-18T22:53:00.000-07:00

kinda lost within myself..re -discovering " enchantress " I know what i want from my life.but I am not putting any efforts to let it happen.I have this unwavering faith in my life that it would get me only what i asked for..

when mom and me are having our usual fights , i start imagining life without her.how would i ever be able to live without her ! she is the best est mom in the whole world.

when i think about my new life with angel , i smile..whole heatedly ! and someone who can make me so happy by just having him in my thoughts..how blissful would be a life with him , to wake up in his arms and sleep down listening to his heartbeat ...

my sister who tries everything to annoy me at best..i keep advising her how she should live her life like..i always want her to stay away form the mistakes i did in my life..i would not be there for her always..would she learn to be the girl she wants to be..

love for my brother is intense ,he is one of the purest souls i know..the desire to live each moment of his life is undying in him and i always feel inspired after conversing with him.

anshul angel's cousin who has become an important part of my life..would our relation still be the same once i officially become her " bhabhi" .would my new family accept me the way anshul did.she says "nobody else could have fitted so perfectly in the picture i had of my brother's wife as you do "

there are loads of happiness waiting for me to unlock the door..yet i have to let go old pleasures..a few of my friends even claim i am too young to be married..but as of i know myself..i am going to be a child forever.its instilled deep inside me.as long as i am not hurting my elders and taking responsibility ,i hope i would be loved as a child i am..

a new life , new parents , new home and new relatives we all need to go through this phase of our lives..i just wanna be myself..i won't be able to pretend what i ain't. if i can't cook good food..i can't.i am a lazy one , i am. if i have mood sings,i can't help.

but i am the one who would be willing to share all your worries , one who would always make sure you're smiling..one who would make stupid faces to make you burst out in laughter.one who would never crib and complain , no matter what life could be..as long as you are with me , i promise to keep everyone around happy !!

i love your dad already..i love your sister already..i love the new ,purple room of ours already..my friends say i am your wife already !! i promise to be yours forever !!

me ,myself and I

2011-09-16T21:51:00.000-07:00

I don't understand how can people be so " fake" they are willing to be someone else 24*7 !! Aren't they stupid ...your eyes show your real soul...they speak aloud how venomous are you intentions..and if you still wanna be fake.. at least wear glasses..hide those eyes that laugh at what you just said..

I feel proud of myself..as i am a very satisfied person..i don't have great expectations from my life and believe in keeping it as simple as i can..oh, when people talk about "money " all the time...i am least interested man..can't you read my eyes if i am polite enough not to say " get the hell outta you "

as if you dream only about sleeping on money..as if the greatest happiness in your life is shopping all you want...i feel so so so pissed off !!

God , why did you made men so selfish ..and anyways i feel so proud i ain't one of them..I am rare , i am special..you can't bribe me with money...convincing me requires real emotions..real feelings and true and genuine love which unfortunately you aren't capable of giving..aah..poor you...

My soul loves to be in peace..be in a solitary state..be happy for the small things around...be content and satisfied..For me Happiness is inner tranquility...when my heart and eyes smile with my lips..when i feel people love me truly..and they are themselves , no matter if rude at times..they are real...not fake..they crib and complain..they laugh and get dishearten..they are themselves..no pretense..and i feel really comfortable with them..i can be myself...

Are fake people happy to be in their fake world..where people hug you with no warmth to share..kiss you with the venom in their hearts...appreciate you cursing inside...i would have rather died than being fake..so..i am a real gurl...

happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

2011-09-14T22:03:00.000-07:00

i am like super super excited.............extremely happpyyyyyyyyy for no reason...actuallyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Feel like going farrrrr far awayyyyyyyyyyyy and to a certain place where nobody lives...where no one can find me..just me and angel...secluded from the world...

lying down in each other's arms on a secluded beach......kissing each other unstoppable...I am incredibly happy todayyyyyyyyyyyy and hoping this stays forever.........the feeling of love and happiness and contenetment......

angel told me " you're like a sad cat sitting in one corner one day and a rabbit jumping out of happiness the other day " lol lol lol

so am i !! unpredictable....love sick...happy go lucky girllllllllllllll

and the countdown begins..

2011-09-12T04:57:00.000-07:00

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And the love would perish forever...We both are counting each day..waiting for the day..Met his friend who got tied in knot two years back after five years of long distance courtship...a couple i look up to..They are blessed with a li'l angel..a pretty girl whom i met..and its a pure ecstasy when a new born baby holds your fingers and smiles at you....

Their parents knew about us..they were excited to meet me too..and it was awkward cum special moments..Feeling on top of the world as they said I am perfect fit for him..and we should get married soon..

worried too....like every other girl..about marriage.but there lies distinct happiness for being with him forever...My friends claim I would always be happy with him..He knows how to keep me smiling !! unlike a few of my friends..i never doubt my love..i trust him more than i love him..

just waiting for him to come...and excited for the gifts he is getting for me..yay !! yay !! yay !! i am blushing....hehe..

Loved this pic a lottt

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2011-09-08T00:57:00.000-07:00

I get bored of myself , the basic nature ,the looks ,the dressing sense ,the way i talk , the friends i hold on too..

looking for transformation....complete transformation...Just loosing weight is not my priority..but I wanna be in a new shape..So that people find it hard to recognize me...i wanna change myself to this extent...

Feel like throwing away all the old stuff from my wardrobe...and getting all new colors there...all new outfits...so that i do not get up each day and stare at my wardrobe , saying.." oh , no blue again "

New Friends...new places to visit..like a new world...being transported somewhere different from what earth looks like..A New Home...far away from the bustling traffic , messy markets and heartless neighbors...

Last evening sky looked so starry..It had all my favourite colors together..purple ,baby pink , light blue and slightly white..It was like nature calling me to hold me in the arms.Showing me the beauty of the world..and to let go all the pains and hurts for the immense love it has for me...I am a Wordsworthian by nature...

Falling in love one more time..

2011-09-05T04:37:00.000-07:00

I am falling in love with you one more time...just the way we fell for each other the first time we met , the first time i holded your hands , first time you kissed my hands , first time you told me i am beautiful !!

One more month from today and you would be back..The distance between us would melt with the warmth of love..It would be like our very first date..as I get nervous when I think about it..don't know why..I feel the excitemnet and happiness of a child within me when we think about the next time we had meet..

Reminding myself about the days that changed my life..

First time I saw you - In the month of October ,outside your work place..You were secretly stealing a look of me and I could not take away my eyes from you.I had decide I wanted to talk with you.

First time I talked with you - Towards,the end of November,I was studying for my exams in next few days.We chatted online and we had endless things to talk about.

First time i heard your voice - I still remember you left me a note saying you can reach me at 9-------8 as I ain't online always.We had already started exchanging texts all day long.I called you and your voice was mesmerizing.

First time we met - It was First week of December , few days before my mom dad's anniversary.We went for a movie and I felt I knew you since long.I was quiet..You were talking a lot..and we both were expressing our nervousness in one or the other way.

First time we had a fight - You were worried for something else..I thought it was me who annoyed you..And unknowingly ,i made you all the more angry.You told me you won't talk for one complete day.But I manged to make you call me before the day ended.hehe..

First time we hugged - We were in love already..and the long drive at the rainy evening with such a romantic person...You holded my hands..and kisses them.Slowly,you cuddled me in your arms..The most memorable moment of my life when you drove all the way single handedly..holding me in your arms..And the bliss of resting my head on your shoulders..We knew we were meant to stay long.

million reasons to smile...

2011-09-02T00:33:00.000-07:00

Life gives us a hundred reasons to cry..but a million reasons to smile...we just forget to admire the good things around when it hurts...

I am blessed with great friends who are always there for me when i need them...the ones who can always cheer me up, no matter how deeply i am hurt...Parents who sometimes don't understand my ambitions to fly high but always show their love in some or the other way...Mom who can make out from a look , i am hurt.Someone who can't hide her tears when anything about my marriage is being talked about.The only one who understands I am not wrong in choosing Angel for my life.

One of the reasons behind me blushing smile is my new girlfriend too..who happens to be Angel's cousin sister..She is so much me..And the fact that she is soooooo happy that I am the one for his brother makes me love her more and more.We can talk endless..She can't keep secrets from me..even the ones she is not obliged to share.We laugh a lot when we talk about their childhood pranks.How my Angel still loves to play hide and seek with the kids , how he values relationships in his life..

I know he loves me a lot..but it looks so much better when someone else tells you the same thing...that he loves you a lot..It makes our love stronger.Gf told me he loves you a lot and is willing to go against his family too only for you.His friends who treat me like his wife already.Its indeed special when his friend's family too knows that you exist.

I still don't believe I could actually find someone who fits in perfectly with me..Just so perfectly.And there is this guy who tried everything so that we could part..just everything.Love to me is sacrifice..Its not seeing yourself happy with someone but being sure that the person you love feels on top of the world.Its about happiness of the one you love.

Its not love if you want to posses someone .Its not love if your actions don't match your words.Its not love if you keep on telling lies.So , A request to my past..stop expecting from your life that I would ever be back...

Keeping aside , I love my Life..and the ones who are part of my Paradise.There is something better in process every time something bad happens with us..So,take life as it comes to you rather than expecting it to be as you imagined..as there is no life if all you expected comes out to be true..Keep looking forward for changes in your life as they keep your life " life-like"

are we perfect for each other ?

2011-08-25T02:28:00.000-07:00

Are we perfect for each other ?

I know how to keep myself quiet when you are bursting out in anger...You know just the right words when i need to be consoled..

I do understand your heart is a closed chamber of secrets...You know I am an open book....

I know you need love a li'l more when you're stressed ..You understand i never want to be left alone when i am sad...even if it's just the voice I hear from you..

You don't know how to express your love for someone...I can read your eyes..

I express myself in an extrovert way...I can't hide things from you....You say things when the time is just Right and you know it would make me the happiest..

Your love for me is Intense...My love for you is Madness.

pearls of wisdom..

2011-08-23T00:35:00.000-07:00

The influence of negative people in your life could be life shattering..Even when they do not speak a word..their silence is enough to destroy your inner tranqulity.stay away from them..

At times ,I even feel pity for such people..as happiness to them is momentary.they can never live their lives as normal people do.they are always surrounded by ill will and negativity.Nothing good actually happens with them as their thoughts are always taking them towards their own destruction..They can never be true friends..as they can't trust anyone in this world..not even thier own selves.

Annoying others comes naturally to them..don't be fooled by believing they are doing it knowingly..its a living style for them..You can see hatred in their eyes even when they are simling aloud.They would always keep an eye on you...as they wonder how can people stay happy in this meaningless world.

Love is completely lacking in thier lives..as negativity can survive only where love doesn't stay..They created the devil inside themselves..Any event in your life can either make you better or worse..it depdens on how you take it.

The best way to deal with such people is simply ignore them..As if they do not exist..Try avoiding any sort of conversation with them as it is the best medium of passing on negativity to another person.Don't even think about changing them..its not worth the effort.It has possibilities of transforming you into a naegative one..

Inorder to keep your mind aloof of the negative vibes they spread , read inspiring stories , talk to positive souls and keep reminding yourslef " i am a positive human being " " I have full control over my life " " I get everything i want in my life "

Although the power of positivity is too strong a force to be captivated by negativity but as being positive is being compassionate , being kind and being generous.Negative Influences can be harsh on us.

I hate people who say , " this world is a bad place to live in " I feel like telling them , " Why the hell are you alive then".What we say , we pass on to the universe.when I say " The world is full of love " I send positive energy in the world..and the universe around us starts creating what we thought about and vice versa..So, when we say " We are surrounded by crooks "..it becomes a reality.

Even when i say , " I hate negative peopele" I attract them more in my life..So, the rule is simple..simply avoid them.The world is like a huge market..it has good and it has bad..All we need to do is choose..what we want in our life..and simply ignore by not giving any feeling of hatred or jealosuy or ill will to the things we do not like.Life is simple , we insist on making it complicated..

unheard story ..

2011-08-18T04:32:00.000-07:00

" Am i fooling myself by believing i am god's special child " said she to herself , rolling her hair locks in her second finger.She believed in fairy tales ever since she first opened her eyes.Got hurt , got traumatized ,she cried and withered but she knew deep inside her heart that fairy tales do come true.

there were friends who made fun of her innocence , there were colleagues who took away her credit , there were relatives who always tried to pull her down but something always made her believe there is someone who would realize that the piece of rock lying among the coals is a shining diamond.

she could read minds.when someone came closer and told her , " you're naive" .she knew he had like to steal away benefits.she kept quiet.she was patient.she had faith..faith of the unseen and unheard.Her efforts are not going to be in vain.

Fortunately ,her dream world became her reality.she never had to come out of the dream world she lived in rather she pulled people inside her world.All those who were enticed by her simplicity and plainness were a part of her fairy land.There came an Angel who was lost in himself.He was attracted to the simplicity associated with her.She took no time to realize he is the one,he is the one who could see what jewel she was.They fell madly in love with each other.

" my beliefs carved the world around me " she said to herself.She is not meant for the ordinary.It takes a heart to understand her.Logic and Reason are foreign languages to her.Emotion is only what can rule her.she gets hurt by small things..she is happy for trivial of all matters.its only the smallest of things that matter to her.Her world is charismatic and unreachable.You'll never understand her completely as she has nothing to hide and yet there is so much to her.

She is someone who looks at the world with colorful glares.everything around her is beautiful and if it isn't she never would be a part of it.She is here and she isn't.The soft spoken and silent girl has a mysterious heart.Her dreams do not let her get worried for trivialities outside.She has seen all her dreams transform into a reality , All she has is faith , faith in her dreams..

i wana cum back to life...

2011-08-17T01:56:00.000-07:00

I wana come back to my life..I wana breathe once again....I wana live one more time...

The lost and lonely girl has got her ways....her destiny has reached her...someone called her name from far far away and promised to walk the journey of life with her..she trusts the voice she just heard..and her world seems to have stopped waiting for him to come...come back , angel...i am here...

I want to spend my days with my first love , books..I wana read Twilight Series once again...i wana get back to love..Jane Austen , Virginia Woolf , Robin Sharma or Rhonda Byrne...I feel like spreading all my books...on my bed...and sleeping with the fragrance of love.....

I want to feel the waters...they make me feel lively...they make me feel love is all round me...i wana walk besides the waters with you....I wana go on talking endlessly all night....I wana just keep looking inside your deep dark eyes...I wana lie down wrapped in your arms..till forever..

I want to get back in shape...YES..YES..YES..faster, quicker..my inspiration is back...the one who adores every inch of me is coming back....i am not going to disappoint him....Planning to join yoga class as i need to be peaceful too.....

It feels like my heart was bleeding since long..and someone just got a bandage for my wounded heart...aaaaah....its so much relief.....I am back to life......

I so wana go for a girl's night out before getting married...yeah , i never had a night out with my girlfriends....I wana live my life as a bachelor before i get married....

I am looking forward for some great surprises for him...something like a wonderful day together...just me and him...something we would always remember....and smile....

towards the end...I want to propose you...Will you marry me , My Love !! I promise to be yours forever.....

h-a-p-p-y e-x-c-i-t-e-d n-e-r-v-o-u-s

2011-08-17T00:06:00.000-07:00

y-e-s
I a-m h-a-p-p-y

he is coming back "october 5 " is the day !! i am happy as finally we are going to be together,we are going to hold hands ..i am falling short of words....

i wana plan a few surprises for him..need your help...

and yeah....nothing can separate us now....

2 great reasons to b happyyyyy

2011-08-11T00:07:00.000-07:00

Yay !!

So , Finally I am going to interact with the first member of my new family...I am super excited and super nervous..

She came to know about me just a few days back..And I did received such a warm welcome from her.She posted on her social networking sites that she got rakhi gift in advance and she is feeling on top of the world as the gift she got is someone special..And yeah , she is Angel's cousin , a very close one..

Isn't it heart warming !! And I had a pampering day yesterday...got pampered through spa's in parlour...it was such a relaxing experience.

So, I am happy....My current mood is " H-A-P-P-Y"

My brother's birthday is near...and so is Bebo's..on the same day - August 13...I am excited...Two Leo People who love themselves a lot and people term thier self love as Selfish attitude...Na....Leo's aren't that bad..They always support what they feel is right and can go beyond set boundaries to prove they are RIGHT..

They get mature much before their age...That's what i feel about Leo's..May be due to their ever experimental nature..

Read somehwere , Capricorns and Leo's can never be good friends...eh ? Me and my brother go really well together despite the differences...Yes , Fire and Earth can be together !!

I love this relationship in my LIFE...me and my brother...I value and respect it.I wish him all the world's happiness....And loads of joy to bebo too.....God bless my two Special Angels...

it can hurt me too...

2011-08-09T23:37:00.000-07:00

I feel stuck.I feel lost.I feel wierd.I think a lot.I think about all the trivial things that hardly matter in my life.If you tell me this is right because it is logical and practical ,forget that anything reached my ears.If you tell me the same thing because it would make so and so happy , i would do it whole heartedly.logic and reason are foreign lanuages to me.

If you tell me , this would bring us luxuries , i would say no..But if you say this would bring us contentment , i would be happy too.

this is the way i am...i am easy to be fooled..all you need is play with words..tell me you do care...tell me its linked with feelings and emotions rather than reason and logic.

I might be talking all bullshit.But , here i am allowed to do...This is my happy place..where i always go back smiling.

I am a lazy bum..I am being neglegient about my looks...be it the weight i have put on , be it my hairs or my skin.

I am not loving myself ..as the one who made me feel i am beautiful is miles away from me..Its been 200 days or so....Its been a lifetime for me....

Don't expect me to be normal after all this...I am a human after all....

why blame MEN !!

2011-08-05T03:12:00.000-07:00

I just over heard two women talking in a metro. One of the most entertaining things in the world is to hear two women gossiping. They were fighting with each other very politely. One said , “ My son is working with so and so Company drawing a package of 10.5 lk” Another said , “ My son is working as a Vice President with HSBC Bank “.They were looking at girls in metro and wondering who could be a better match for my son . Women are going to be Women.lol

We girls are always comparing men around us. Aren’t we ? When we were in schools , we talked about our dads..when we grew up , we talked about our bf’s – how mine is better than yours. Later , husbands , sons and sons in law.

We have our own flaws. Why blame Men always !

all i need...

2011-08-02T04:46:00.000-07:00

Life is being a li'l diplomatic at my end .. it knows well how incomplete I am without him yet it keeps us apart.....

we do fight a lot .. nothing is clear...when is he coming back , when are we getting married , what am i doing next , where am i getting my PhD Degree from - India or U.S , NOTHING IS CLEAR

I am trying to be happy ...although i fail every time...

all i need is him...

some happy quotes for myself ...

And i did realized nothing else matters ....

Now , i do understand the most painful things of all is when you both are dying to meet each other and circumstances don't let you be together...

He did told his Boss , " My three kids are alone there ( His mom , dad and me ) and i so much adore him for the kind of person he is...a pure soul , a genuine heart and a wonderful human being !!

We discuss about Marriage seriously now...He asked me when do you wana get married in November or March next year ?

I said , " I can't stay away ....that's all i know... "

I know I am talking all about sad sad things.....and I know things would be perfect !!! More beautiful than our dreams....we would be the happiest couple around !!

I am trying to stay happy.....trying hard.....

yes , i am not fine

2011-07-28T23:41:00.000-07:00

yes , i am not fine...

the smile on my face is completely fake...i am not happy from inside...and i know nobody else can make me happy but myself...but i have lost all the strength...its just not working anymore ..my heart skips a beat every now and then..when i am talking less , i am normal , when i do not talk at all , it means i had enough...i have broken into pieces ...my heart lies like shattered pieces of glass...

what was my fault in all this ? why do i have to live without you ? why have three months extended to six months ? just cause i did managed to stay away....why do i love you so much !!

i can't think about good things when nothing good is happening around .....things would be perfect..things would be good..but WHEN ???

will you ?

2011-07-28T05:15:00.000-07:00

Will you still love me even if I’m not perfect? Will you still love me even if I’m not the kind of person you wished I were? Will you still look into my eyes with warmth even if you saw my shadows? Will you still hold my hand even if you knew there will be times I’d let you down?

Sometimes I 'd be silent and I might bore you.I would not always be able to make you smile.You might not enjoy my company everytime.. Sometimes I’d get troubled and I’d fail to put into words what the hell it is that troubles me.I had like to keep things to myself and not sharing every bit of my life with you.Sometimes,I had hurt you badly and be a reason for your tears although I would never hurt you knowingly.

I’d demand things ,I shouldn’t, I’d say things I shouldn’t say. And no matter how much I desire to protect you and make you happy, sometimes I’d be the one who’d cause you the most pain.At times,I would not be interested to listen to what you ahve to say as there could be blunders going in my mind.There would be times ,I would listen unattentively and would want you not to notice it.

If you will love me I cannot promise you that I will not hurt you. I cannot promise you that I will not make you cry and that I’ll never break your heart.. If you will love me, you can be certain that it is I that you will love, not a mask that fools you and gives you only what your eyes desire to see.I would love you from all my heart and might be my soul too.I would give you the best I can and best I could be.I would never keep any hard feelings for you in my heart and would let them out whenever they erupt.You will see the most beautiful things in my eyes when love filled in them.If you will love me, you can be certain that you will love the depths of me, all of me that is in me, and I in turn will love you with all of me...

searching for happiness

2011-07-25T02:24:00.000-07:00

i have everything i want in my life ,
things happen as i wanted them to happen ,
people are good to me , at least on my face ,
but something or someone is still missing ...is it angel ? or something else...

i have everything yet i am not happy...my smile is just movement of my lips and not an expression of my heart..i stay aloof , i stay alone ...

i am not myself with people around..i am a strange , unknown girl with them..

is it love lacking in my life ?

is it i am lost in wilderness ? is it i am fooling myself that things are happening as i want them to happen....

am i afraid of days to come ? am i expecting too much from present ? does my past still haunt me ?

i am not able to understand myself...what am i wanting to happen ? what is that constantly reminds me i am not a happy girl i used to be....why am i all fine , yet broken in to pieces inside...

i feel like the unread pages of a book which lie waiting to be read and understood and brought to an happy ending....

letter to someone far away...

2011-07-15T02:41:00.000-07:00

My Baby ,

You make me restless...Don't show me how much you wana come back...it makes my heart skip a beat...

Sometimes , I am selfish , I do not consider the fact that i have my family and friends here , i can blog all my worries and pains , but my baby is all alone in an alien world.....

I know you do not say at times , but you 're missing me each moment...

I know your silence speaks aloud..

Things would be much better than we had dreamed about....trust me ..

Yours ,
Love

bag full of emotions

2011-07-14T02:34:00.000-07:00

My heart is like a bag full of emotions....of all kinds..

amazed at myself..i can feel all the emotions in a single day///

early morning .. i got up with this biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig smile....i tell myself each day i am going to have a wonderful dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy although its true not always..

had a fight with Angel yesterday...it annoys me when its day here , its night there....when i feel romantic , he is in hurry to reach office....when he is in lovely mood , i am pissed off at office...eeaaaakkkkk.....

a few hours later , i am with my irky boss...DK BOSE....who makes me go.....mad...

few more hours ...one of my closest friend who recently started dating a girl after being in one sided love with a girl since quite a few years..oh..i am so..so...so..happy for him...

may be i am meeting his new gf at evening today....

One of my family friends and me had naughty chit chat about our bf's...we girls love talking about it where guys love doing it.....

so...current mood is naughty...saucy and spicy......

and i am sure by the time i leave office and i reach home , there are new emotions waiting in my bag....

worried sister ...

2011-07-11T05:01:00.000-07:00

Its important to love ourselves...even when we fail to love others..

strong believer of the fact that if you can't love yourself , you can't love anyone else !!

I am worried for my sis these days...this is the first time i am mentioning her in my blogs...as we always are " tom and jerry " according to Angel...always after each other..

she is a very silent girl...i doubt she speaks to herself...she never says what she wants...she kind of lives in a fear , fear of being rejected , fear of not being loved....her solitude scares me....i am a kind of girl who can't live alone..although , at times loneliness is all i need but its one of the fears of my life...

and i have seen her as a lonely soul..

the result of her loneliness is utter desolation...she seems to have a strong belief her life would be same...

we are just two poles apart....i always tell her I treat myself like a princess...and i get what i want...all you need is change your thoughts..but as if she doesn't believes me...

at times i hate her..i wish i never had a sister , but deep inside i know i do care for her..i want her to be happy...to fly high....

moving aside...i am deeply passionate about cosmetics these days....as i had always been a plain , simple looking girl..these colors in eye shadow , mascara , kajal , lip gloss are attracting me...i am experimenting with lots of brands and lots of make up...specially in lip glosses...

i can't sum up in words how much i wana wrap angel in my arms..I love Indian Weddings...Kangna , if you are familiar with is a played by newly married husband and wife where they search for a ring in a pot filled with water or milk with rose petals .The one who claims to find the ring the maximum number of times is considered to be the one dominant in relationship.

i adore this ceremony....i told angel , i want to win here ;) i guess , i would be the first indian girl who tells her bf ( would be hubby ) to loose the game for her ;)

angel loves me for my innocence and childish nature....so , why leave it ?

meeting of two souls...

2011-07-07T00:57:00.000-07:00

The bliss of holding hands with your love !!!

I believe physical intimacy has much more to it than pleasures of body...its love between two souls ..Its spiritual as being termed in ancient times...I am ancient in many ways..i do not much belong to the world i am born ....either i am in past ages , being nostalgic or i am looking inside future....

I consider physical intimacy more as emotional and spiritual than physical...

m dying....

2011-07-04T05:10:00.000-07:00

I am dying each day without him now.....

I have realized not everyone is happy to know i am happy....

My own friends are jealous of the fact that he and me would be married soon...

touch wood....I have reached this stage of madness in love that hell do i care....i can let go everyone to have him....

hell do i care.....

oh...i am so annoyed and frustrated.....my words seem to be inspired from a devil.....

all i know is my patience is over....i can't stay away from my love anymore.....

omg...i wana go mad !!

2011-07-01T22:17:00.000-07:00

yeps.....I wana go mad in love !!1

could be the lovely rains outside....

could be the PMS mood swings.....

could be the lovely dreams each night......

could be the thoughts of getting married soon...

could be the fb love box " engagement " and " happy marriage"....

anything of the above could be the reason....but all i wana do is go mad.....go mad making love with you......

take me along !!

2011-06-29T02:31:00.000-07:00

take me along where you are ,

don't leave me alone ,

so incomplete i am .

come on white horse ,

take me away far away ,

need you love .

hold me in your arms ,

never let me go ,

so restless i am .

kiss me everlasting ,

you're a drug ,

need you to live.

love me endless ,

you're my life ,

so lifeless i am .

engagement in hurry !!

2011-06-27T23:25:00.000-07:00

my dream of yesterday was Engagement in hurry....

I am in office at the moment...suddenly , mom calls up " come home soon..your engagement has been fixed " I ran from office , all drenched and tired , i reach home..its all over crowded with relatives and friends...as if engagement itself was a planned surprise for me...

I told mumma , " me going to parlor" and mom says no..no time left...Imagine , i reach my own engagement function all plain...

Angel is looking at me lovingly...even though i look so plain..I am sad..and my baby holds my hand and tells me , " you look more beautiful simple and sober" and me pampered chick says " huuhhhhh , don't you talk to me..."

i am annoyed and Angel says , " you look so hot when angry " he is such a darlinggg , and my mom is shouting on me and telling her son in law , " don't spoil her with your love , be strict "

all my Angel does is look at me with so much love and plant a kiss on my forehead which speaks aloud , i would love you always....

and i wake up with a bright smile on my face...and the first words of the morning were , " I love you baby "

miss you

2011-06-27T01:12:00.000-07:00

“Distance never seperates two hearts that really care,

for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there.

But whenever I start feeling sad

cuz I miss you I remind myself how lucky I am

to have someone so special to miss.”

my kiddo bf !!

2011-06-23T00:09:00.000-07:00

guys are no less than school going kids.....they get annoyed for no reason and behave like tiny tots....

My own Angel , got angry.....for no good reason....they always tell us how we should be mature and how they keep reminding us to grow up....

and when it comes to them..guys just never grow up..the desire to be loved and pampered is immensely bestowed within their hearts...

now..see how he got angry..and how i am pampering my li'l baby....maan jao naa :P :P

he is a small baby..and i so much love to pamper my baby...awwwww.....its strange , how we both are angry at each other and we both calm down after certain time....touchwood..

I can never thank god enough to send me this angel in my life who brightens up each day...love you.....

my sweetest sweetheart fears loosing me..i know...all i got to say baby is i am never gonna do anything that would go against us....never...

life without you.....i can't visualize..and therefore it doesn't exists..so..all we got to do is hold hands tighter because we are gonna end forever....

i do not want to be remembered as romeo Juliet who died in love..rather proud grandparents who are still madly in love with each other....

love you forever....

being healthy means being beautiful..

2011-06-22T01:45:00.000-07:00

I visited a doctor last night and she kinda opened my eyes...Being Beautiful is being Healthy !! If we eat and drink well , we are naturally making ourselves beautiful....

Skin glows when you drink 8 - 10 glass of water each day...Cheeks go red when you have enough vitamins and minerals inside you.....Lips are rosy pink when your hemoglobin level is high..You get inside the best clothes when your daily routines is well balanced with regular exercise and balanced diet..

A aah....I am becoming more and more conscious about my health and beauty.....Pat on my shoulders..good going...Angel was worried for me too....Doctor said my Hemoglobin , iron , potassium and protein level is low...what's left...fats and carbohydrates..lolzzz

But now I am gonna be strict with myself...because i wana look my best...

Mom did told me . " How are you going to take care of your new family If you can't take care of yourself."

True..mumma......

Angel is such a sweetheart..he explains me like a small tot...he said women start facing problems after 30's if iron and calcium is less...He told me to eat 5 fruits each day...no burgers ..no pizaaa...no pasta........I don't need a doctor to..angel is everything to me.....

love you babieeeeee

2011-06-20T04:06:00.000-07:00

How much i wana steal away the moments of togetherness..How I am dying to be wrapped in your arms…how each day without you is a punishment for me…

Come back …its been long….seasons have changed….summers are about to leave….winters already bid good bye…why are we still separate ?

I can’t explain how much I am dying to be with you forever….how much I wana get tied in knot with you…I am developing beautiful images of future with you…of our own family….I am growing….I can feel that..with the changing seasons , I am a new person each day…

I am mentally stronger human being….

I am dreaming….i am waiting..i am praying…I am wishing……come back Angel….

awkward moments

2011-06-17T21:49:00.000-07:00

some moments confuse me..i wonder should i be the one smiling or crying for them to happen..

attended a cousin's engagement ceremony yesterday..now i am the next one....everyone knows..than why does everyone has to come to me and tell me " you are the next " it really doesn't makes me happy....

mom cried..when she saw my cousin coming ...she visualized me there...i felt bad..but somehow i controlled my tears....my mom loves me a lot...the pain i have in my heart is manifold in front of her pain..

why do we girls have to sacrifice.....why do we need to leave our families to have our love...why can't we have both just like guys keep holding on to both all their lives...

it hurts.....i was being taken to one ceremony where it ensures i get married within next six months..although , i do not believe in all this.....It was the most embarrassing moment of my life ..i never appreciated being center of attraction..everyone was looking at me.....they all were talking about me...i cried.....

and i was attracting attention again unknowingly....they all knew i am crying....

These awkward moments made me realize how much my family cares for me..how my relatives can do anything to bring back that smile on my face..i love you all.....

I am still lost....hopefully writing down it all may help....

i feel stronger...

2011-06-16T00:28:00.001-07:00

I realize I am becoming stronger each day…the love between us is giving me strength...slowly I am realizing how much I can do to have him in my life…

No matter, things turn out to be unplanned…we are meant to be together and we would be …

Its strange how I speak things just what he expects me to speak…I am becoming mature enough not to consult anyone and take my own stand…

Love is such a vast emotion….in a way; all other feelings are a part of it…

I have this very strong feeling inside my mind that whatever I am doing is the best I could…somewhere at the back of my mind , I know he is going to support me always..

May be it’s the undying faith we bestow on each other that makes us overcome everything else…

He surprised me today..by sending my favorite purple flowers..from U.S..to receive flowers from your bf on your official birthday at your office is undoubtedly special and it feels like a bliss...i love you bacha...so....much.... I know we are made for each other and we would be together…

I am gonna make you mine….

manunikki

2011-06-13T03:34:00.000-07:00

" Manunikki" is a word very close to my heart...nikki is me and manu is he....:) :)

Aren't we , madly in love with each other...how both of us desire to end the mess and come closer ..no matter who was wrong...no matter who said what...no matter ..you say sorry or me...but all we need is we patch up within hours...or minutes....

i love us....not you...not me...but us....:)

had a fight with angel..he was upset due to whole lot of things...i tried to calm him down and all of a sudden..lost it all....we did not talked for quite a few hours...

And we both feel this emptiness within us when we do not talk a single day...or do not say i love you to each other...we did talked...he switched on his phone to talk to me..and i had been trying him ...

touch wood....let the love between us grow more and more each day :) :) cause its only he who can calm me down when i am angry and vice versa

mom is not at home..i need to cook food and come to office..and go back home and again make dinner...ah...cum back soon mum...:) :)

feeling lost..

2011-06-10T22:32:00.000-07:00

Moments when your heart is not with you....It stays quiet like a small annoyed child who prefers not to speak because he is not heard...

when I feel lost in wilderness cause my heart doesn't tells me what it desires....why is my own heart ignoring me ?

Is it I did ignored it....

What's my fault in it dear heart ?? how can i get you something that is miles away from my physical self.....i always keep you filled wit the love of him....why do you make my eyes and ears and lips desire for it...why are you conspiring against me ? you know well , i need to be strong....why do you leave me to myself......

dear heart...I am loved only cause you belong to me...you are one of the purest of hearts i had ever met....they all love you....just cause they can't make you feel loved every time....doesn't really means they don't...

can you please stop being a kid and learn to be patient....

can you please start talking loudly again.....can you please start beating at the normal pace.....can you please stop making me feel i am dead...dead already....

make me feel your presence.....my heart....one more time....

unsatisfied

2011-06-08T05:22:00.000-07:00

Moments when nothing gives solace.....I feel like talking to nobody in this world...I feel like being all alone with myself....yet i so think about someone coming and giving me a tight hug and saying , " everything is gonna be fine "

When I do not feel good about the things and people who made me happiest....I feel like running away...far away..from everyone...hide somewhere , so that no one can rescue me from my loneliness....

dryness.....all around me....

i need love.....i need you my love......

being happy is simplest of all...

2011-06-07T04:24:00.000-07:00

just realized today.....how simple it is to be happy....all I got to do is think about good things that happened to me in my past..and think about all the good things that are happening with me in present and visualize all good things are going to happen in my coming days.....

its just that easy...happiness is plainest of all feelings....it requires no great efforts..we can create happiness as and when we like...all we need is some true friends in our lives who are there any hour of the day....some people who love us with all their hearts..

The art of living does not consist in preserving and clinging to a particular mode of happiness, but in allowing happiness to change its form without being disappointed by the change; happiness, like a child, must be allowed to grow up ♥ ♥

Changes should be welcomed....as they make you a better human being....Thanks to Bebo..She made me realize that I have been worrying about something that actually is an illusion..She helped me look at the beautiful side of things which I could not see !!

Angel would not be coming back a few more months....I lost my mind when I heard that....when something hurts me , nothing reaches my heart...just nothing...only the words keep coming back to me the ones that hurt me.....

I would be flying off too , most probably for a year or so...I realized it would be a wonderful experience if I keep aside the feelings of leaving my family and friends...and ain't it better than living here without him...If I have him..I have the whole world....

It would be a new learning experience...It would be as good as a honeymoon for one complete year...I would get to know about a new place...new people..and the bliss would be that it would be only me and him in an alien land....its like a fairy tale....and i had been spoiling my mood thinking about all the crap...

happiness comes to me on its own..and i keep worrying about things that actually do not exist....silly and stupid me....

bear hugs to all my angels out here..thanks for such inspiring words you leave here...Life comes as a bliss with you....

craving to write..

2011-06-02T03:20:00.000-07:00

I am feeling a strong desire to write....Its like addiction to smoke a cigarette...It makes me feel restless...

weird what all i am thinking about...when i actually have a thousand reasons to smile and be happy...Angel makes me feel on top of the world..its a pure ecstasy what i feel with him...

I feel like wrapping him in my arms till forever....i want the time to stop for a few months when next time he and me are together...cause now things are going to be a li'l more special....our parents know about us...we are going to be married soon....things are going to change....

my home would be a new place..i would call his parents mum and dad....i don't know how the things are going to be worked upon...but one thing i am sure about is things are going to revolve...

I need you...

Love is all around me..yet i feel love less...Its something i want eagerly and desperately...but I fail to reach....I want to leave behind all my flaws and enter the perfection....I do not speak much....when surrounded by folks..i feel shy..i feel insecure..the fear of rejection keeps haunting me.....although i know deep inside my heart that people around me stand no where in comparison with me....

I want to change myself .....cause my life is gonna change....I easily get hurt,things pinch me long after they had happened...Its unfair but I do carry grudges in my heart...I do carry pains and sufferings i wana get rid from....I want to look different..I am tired of soft , innocent looks...i wana look glamorous and attractive to eyes....I wana be in perfect shape...I wana spend money on myself...i am really bad at spending at myself..i spend a lot in buying gifts for my loved ones..but when it comes to me..i am kajus...

This is not done na...this shows lack of love for myself....the weird things i am jotting down is the result of PMS..hope you guys bear with me.....i need love..so badly..love in each and every form...adorable ,caring , protective ,possessive and passionate...sometimes , we crave more for love....

why are you so far away.....

2011-05-30T02:28:00.000-07:00

Why are you so far away from me…That I can’t hug you when I want to be wrapped….That I can’t look in to your

eyes when I don’t know where I belong to….

I feel nobody cares…Its living in the wrong world if I believe everyone around is happy to see me happy….some just

pretend they are...some are just walking away …

It hurts when I can’t see you…when I can’t hold your hands ...when I can’t reach you….I spread my arms wide…hoping you would come and hold me in your arms…but why does my arms come back all alone…

why can’t I feel things around me beautiful just because you are not anywhere around….How can I miss you while talking to you on phone?

How can I hear you and be lost in your thoughts….What’s happening with me!! Why do I fall and gather up the courage to walk again…Why do I cry and smile again because something you did some time back makes me smile till date…

Why…only thing I got to say is hmmmm…..why do I still believe you understand the long story behind the tiny hmmmm…..

why can’t I stop my tears when you ask me what’s wrong? Why can’t I hide from you that my heart aches….How can I feel lonely when I am surrounded by folks all around me…

Why do I swallow my words when someone asks me “Are things fine..?”

Why all I can do is pass a fake smile when they say everything would be alright…just a few more days…

All dreams can't come true..

2011-05-26T04:25:00.000-07:00

Dreams make us come closer to our inner desires....But not all of them do come true.....

Somewhere , they make us happy even in dreams,The wedding of my dreams is one such illusion...one such beautiful imagination which makes me more happier than reality could ever do....

I wana feel like a Princess....

I wana steal away a few romantic moments at the wedding day...Let him whisper in my ears those sacred words and hold me softly through his arms...

let me be a Duchess for one day.....

I love candles and roses in my room...They are the most romantic things that could be done to steal my heart away...

Marry me in those distant lands..where its you and me....

The Room of my Dreams is somewhat like this....

Romance without waters....no way...

A few Surprises would always be welcomed....

Me and my dreams....My soul speaks through my pen.....

P.S - Rains make me love sick..just can't help.....Missing Angel...

Ain't being alone a bliss !

2011-05-25T02:39:00.000-07:00

Isn’t being alone so much fun with myself...

Moments when I feel I am all alone with the one who never fails to understand me...who loves me unconditionally....

Are we not the best person to judge ourselves...Isn't being alone equivalent to being happy…Being content and satisfied...

Times when I am with myself, I get to look inside me and understand myself better….Moments when I can be completely at ease with myself…when I feel immense love for myself…

Isn’t loving oneself more essential than loving others….Isn’t being a silent girl sitting in the corner much better than the one cribbing amongst the crowd…

Simplicity is the nature of great souls…I feel proud to be gifted with plainness and simplicity…

Did you met a girl before who was in love with herself..I truly am…

Isn’t it peaceful to close your eyes and hear the music inside you…Isn’t it a bliss to look inside your own heart and talk to oneself…who could understand you better than your own soul….

Others just know you the way you want them to know..they judge you by the words you speak….

Aren’t you the best person to be alone with me…be
with yourself…discover moments of eternal bliss…

A thought to share …Love yourself...Cause you are special....You are a human creation who can make miracles happen ....All you need is Love...love for yourself...

you know what !!

2011-05-23T03:51:00.000-07:00

My wildest dreams are about to come true...I am gonna sleep each night in your arms and wake up each day with your arms folded around me...

We are going to visit places together holding hands...we 'll get all our days and nights to be spent with each other....

We won't need emails , texts , phone or internet to stay in touch...We would be together always.....till forever....

Just the thought of it makes my life worthwhile.....Imagine , how I am going to be taken to my Angel's land....All my dreams would be just a few steps away.......

My mom knows about us now....She seems to be happy !! I can't pen down what it actually means to me...This is the first time I could gather up the courage to tell my parents about a guy....Such is the Faith I bestow on him....

I never let thoughts of our separation to waver in my mind ever...I know we are meant to be together...and when It could be with our Parent's blessings...what else could I ever ask for.....

I need blessings...Its just the first step I took...His family already knows about us....Crossing my fingers...Hoping for the best to happen !!

We are going to be each other's officially ....yayyeeeeee........A year or so...and we would be knotted in the world's most precious knot...

At the same time , I have fears in my mind..fear of new family , fear of not being accepted , fear of proving myself as the right one , fear of taking up the responsibilities....

I fear i won't be forgiven believing i am still a kid....I fear it won't be as easy as I think it would be...I fear how I would be balancing my personal and professional life....

Although , I still have the time....But , they say you are never mature enough to get married...You learn things after getting married....

But one thing that makes all my fears vanish is Angel by my side...I know what so ever happens , he would be there for me always...His arms would be wide open when i would need shoulders to cry on...He would be lending his ears when i need to talk endlessly...

And I even know somewhere mom dad would love him...and they would love me for choosing him....And we would be a happy family together....

I said I feel like a Family with Angel...He's gonna be a family....I love the fact that he is mine now forever....

love and proposals

2011-05-21T02:54:00.000-07:00

Life is such a vast term that a life time is less to unravel its mystery and beauty...penning down a girl's journey through love and proposals...A girl starts facing admirers much before she can understand what does this all mean...We live in a world where a 4 year old girl could be raped too..I remember my childhood days , I used to cry badly when i felt any guy is taking interest in me...i could not take lightly even if anyone stared at me for long...

A girl when reaches her 16 th year , she has hopes of a fairy world , every guy has one love and every girl loves a single guy , people do marry only the ones who are their first love...She trusts blindly , her cheeks go red when you call her beautiful , i love you only means to her you would marry her.

who does forgets his/her first love..we do silly things ..don't we ? Its a stage where each guy and each girl gets into a relationship with no desire to cheat or be cheated..But the world they live in is a illusionary world...It slowly starts fading away , we realize we are growing up , we realize its not love....and we move on in our live...Years later , we feel such innocent love was it....such crazy things we did...But it always remains with us as sweet memory.

The first time someone breaks our heart...Doesn't life just comes to an end...Didn't we all felt like giving up life...Always being surrounded by family an friends who love us with all their heart ...And when someone you trusted with all your heart , leaves you without giving a reason ...Don't we all feel disgusted...But , things do change..we grow up....

A girl passes through this stage too....the feeling of guilt...Guilt of hiding things from our parents , guilt of telling lies at home , guilt of falling in love with the wrong guy , of the first kiss , no matter it remains forever in our hearts...I feel guilty when I know someone loves me truly but I can't love them back..

yes , we girls still believe in love...No matter , you broke our heart , you played with our feelings , we still have faith the right guy would come on a white horse and take us away to the Castle...we believe in fairy tales long after we grow up...

there comes the right guy....dreams do come true...fairy tales are not mere stories...we doubt the one who loves us truly...as we have been through wrong guys to finally have you in arms..You come in our lives to make us forget all the pain the world gave us....we feel complete with you...The search here ends....

A girl reaches this stage when the most good looking guy can't take her heart away because the one she gave her heart is the best man in this world...No proposals can ease her heart ..no words can touch her heart cause she has decided to give her life to the one she loves....

love is life...

2011-05-20T04:07:00.000-07:00

Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, or well
bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves.

The path to Love is so narrow that two can not walk on it , unless they become one..

Millions and millions of years would still not give me half enough time to describe that tiny instant of all eternity when you put your arms around me and I put my arms around you.

Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.

Memory is a child walking along a seashore. You never can tell what small pebble it will pick up and store away among its treasured things.

love and marriage

2011-05-19T00:47:00.000-07:00

Isn't Love such a beautiful emotion...and Marriage just the opposite of the shore...

I have seen many relationships in my life getting inside grave as Marriage could not be the destination....I hate lovers getting parted just because they do not belong to the same religion...just because they do not worship the same god...Who can make them understand that lovers worship each other...

I do not understand how can people let go the love of their lives , the one they had been loving since a 10 years all of a sudden.When you love someone , you should be determined to keep the commitment and get that person in your life till forever..by hook or by crook...

If you really value your family so much that sacrificing the love for family is too less , than why did the hell you loved ? If you can't make your parents understand how deeply in love you are...what's the use of thinking about the love when its long gone...why spoil someone else's life whom you can never love the way you did..why..why...why.....

I feel this Marriage should never have been existed...why getting married when you are not in love and probably you never will....

Arrange Marriages..another things i do not appreciate...It rarely does happen that you fall in love with the one you are married too...A few early years would pass as the physical attraction is too much to resist...but at a later stage..it becomes a venom...lack of love spoils life...Its becomes an obligation and a responsibility ..in place of love and commitment..

True test of love is when your hairs grow grey, when you can't walk properly , when you are with your grand children or grown up adult kids...How much can you still adore your love ? How much can you praise him / her and neglect everything else....You realize..You married the right guy when he can still see that girl in you who made him

say “ I love you “ and not an old , worrisome lady.

a few memories...

2011-05-18T02:53:00.000-07:00

Its been two months today since Angel left..We have survived..We have been a support to each other...we did made each other feel all the more loved and cared about..

But..missing each other is still a part of our lives..

Recalling back , a few memories...a few secrets unrevealed...

I saw a dream ...I am at his place...I woke up early morning like a good daughter in law...I got ready and served breakfast to mum and dad..I come back to our room and Angel is still lying asleep..like a small baby with a smile on his face.

I whisper in his ears"... Baby ,I am leaving..call me when you wake up..love ya.."

I have a very normal day at office...While coming back home ,I call mum if she is free.We both come home together...

His Mom , dad and me are having tea together..I call him like all the wives " Kaha ho tum " lolzzz " Ghar kitni der me ayoge "( Where are you and when are you reaching home )

He tells me he is on his way..We , the family goes out for a dinner..My hubby got a cake..and Guess what Its my birthday..What's special about this dream is..This gal is someone who starts planning her birthday a month before , preparing list of the invitees and Birthday dress and accessories..But her dreams had the plainest and simplest of birthdays with her new family and nobody else...

I often see myself preparing dinner for my Angel and he being there with me...admiring me , helping me out and kissing me on cheeks when ever possible...

I dream about sleeping in his arms..the safest place to be..I dream about hugging my new mom and being surrounded by his naughty cousins...I dream about having silly fights and making up the next moment..

love talks

2011-05-16T03:10:00.000-07:00

A guy tells her Gf

He – I saw a dream yesterday which I want to share with you!

She – Yeah...tell me baby.

He – I saw that I am sitting in a multi storied building, my cabin has a lavish view and I am working simultaneously on 3 laptops.

I hear someone coming through the lobby, tick tock...Sound made by high heels.I saw you wearing a classy outfit with a pearl bracelet, high heels and seductive looks. You come near my seat and whispered in my ears, come and look at the beautiful world outside,

you held my hand and take me to the window .I can see beautiful view, mountains one side and rivers flowing the other side. I pull you towards me and hold you in my arms tightly and say, “My real world lies in your arms “

She – I love you (Tears rolling down her cheeks)

He – There was one more dream!

She – I would love to hear.

He – you and I have come to watch a movie...And we have a small boy with us. We get inside the theatre and I come out to restroom and in the meanwhile I think about getting popcorn and drinks for both of you…

What I see is you both are standing outside the theatre and you are looking at me in a worried look…My boy comes running to me shouting papa, I hold him in my arms and we come towards you..I move my fingers in your hairs, caressing, don’t worry, I was just here…

She – Speechless

As beautiful as her...

2011-05-11T23:53:00.000-07:00

When things seem not to be in your control, Just close your eyes and think about all the wonderful people in your life, think about all the days when you smiled and laughed whole heartedly, when you were walking down the streets and all of a sudden you met an old friend who hugs you Think about the love

being showered on you…always…

I am going to share about a girl who came to my life last year. I met her and she was introduced to me as Angel’s sister. My first thought about her was as an Attention Seeker. Slowly, circumstances rolled in a manner, I started believing she doesn’t likes me...She doesn’t like me to be with him.

We girls are very particular about our Man anyone we spy to be a hindrance, we start hating for no reason.

Time passed.we met just for name sake. We never really had a conversation .Both of us had created a distance not to be crossed what so ever. We did hurt each other unintentionally. I was never myself with her; I was always someone else…

Angel was about to leave and this girl told me, we are going to meet and have fun…I would not let you miss him.

One word and it shackles the image I created of her. I wanted to re discover this lady. We started being a support to each other in Angel’s absence. I slowly felt genuine love for her. The heart she possesses is far more beautiful than I could ever imagine. Life has been pretty unfair with her.

She is one of the most beautiful girls I had ever known.I am hoping she meets her Soul mate soon and has a Happily Married Life!!

I love her a lot…Each day passes just talking to her…still I wana know her more and more…A day without her seems Lifeless..When she tells me I am someone whom she trusts the most, someone she can share everything about her Life with…It makes me feel proud...

And the fact that she is my love’s childhood friend makes the relationship all the more precious…I value you..I love you…Please stay forever….You are my li’l Fairy who brightens up each day with her magic spark..Love ya loads..

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On this happy happy occasion , I 'll talk only about Happy Happy things...My Angel , Most of you have agreed upon the fact that I am obsessed and addicted of him , Someone suggested Marriage is the only cure :)

It would be the best day of my life when we would get knotted together for lifetime..Second best day would be to hold my Li'l Princess in my arms and Angel hugging both of us !!

Isn't Love such a beautiful thing....It makes one person the whole world for us..How we reward one such special guy or gal as the best on earth..In a way , we have millions of guys and gals who are the best in someone' s eyes...Making this world a perfect place to live in...

My Angel is rare...He is one of the limited editions of God..

I have never seen him rude or loosing patience in worst of conditions...

He is one of those guys who would keep staring in your eyes , no matter a gal passes by nude.

I can doubt anything in this world, yet not his love..

Someone who cares about little things and these are the moments which make you fall in love..

He is the one who would never demand what he wants ..but surprisingly , he gets everything he desires..

A guy who would think of hugging you whole night and looking into your eyes...

Someone whom you would love to share your heart with...

A guy who stays away from other girls...as he believes he has the best with her...

One who makes you as comfortable as you feel with your family....

Someone who would know all you could never say in words just by looking inside your eyes...

One of those guys you can feel they are hurt by their voice...when they know you are ill.

Someone who would never say anything he does not means...

A guy who would keep his promises and you can trust his words even when he is drunk..

One who gets gifts for his cousins , aunts and parents and maintains healthy relationships..

One who would do anything to stop the tears of a friend...

Someone you had always doubt does not belongs to earth and could be a Angel...

Yes , He is my Angel....